Sibh

I am really struggling with weight gain and an increase in appetite at the moment. I was always the type of person who battled with weight but if I gained weight in the past I was always able to pull it back. However recently I feel I have no "off button" when it comes to eating. I feel my appetite can never be satisfied. I think about food the whole time but on the other side of the coin I hate myself for eating so much and all of the weight I've put on ( 3 stone) and want to loose it. It makes me feel so low about myself. I am continuously trying new diets, intuitive eating etc and can loose a few pounds but then I give up and go mad on food again. I have been on prozac for the last 8 years after the birth of my last child. I have never lost the weight I put on during pregnancy and continued to put on more. I increased from 20mg to 40mg of prozac about a year and half ago. I started on amitriptyline in Feb for teeth grinding and jaw clenching. I realise amitriptyline can cause weight gain but I started gaining previous to going on it. My sister is convinced that my appetite increased when I increased prozac. Just wondering if anyone has had a similar experience while on prozac? Thanks ?

Hi Aoifs30, Sorry just saw ur reply now. Thanks. I would like to know if the course really helped you and if you would consider it worth doing. My psychiatrist and gp are against me doing it at all. They reckon it could be too much for me and too traumatic leaving my family behind, out of my environment, etc, as I was thinking of attending as an in patient. I was told to forget about Dublin. Did you attend the course as an in patient or day patient. I am living in Kerry. I am cracking up here not being able to find the right help. I feel lost and am going downhill fast. There is nobody who specialises in ocd down here. They all know of it but haven't a clue how to treat it. Aoifs30 you can send me a personal message if you don't want to post on the forum. Any thoughts and info on the course would be greatly appreciated. Thanks, Sibh

Hi, I am just wondering if anybody has any experience or information on the anxiety disorders programme in st Patrick's hospital Dublin. I am not from Dublin so I was contemplating attending the course as an in patient. Im pregnant at the moment and have just started back on prozac as my ocd and anxiety spiralled out of control. I'm finding it impossible to get any proper help for my ocd. I was attending someone for about a year and it has gotten me nowhere. Any info would be greatly appreciated or if anybody knows of somebody in Southern Ireland , limerick, Kerry or cork. Thanks

Thanks Mel1971 Your right - will go to my gp. I think it's triggered again as we are tyring for a baby and I feel very anxious. The first time I got OCD was two weeks before my son was born. I started to have very strange thoughts and kept trying to put them out of my mind. But of course they got worse and so did the anxiety. When he was born all was fantastic and I thought it was just anxiety, it felt great, until the following day. Like your ex husband I wouldn't stay in the room alone with my baby. i thought I had gone crazy. it definately felt like that. I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist in the hospital and it was a small relief to know what it was. I spend most of the following weeks in bed crying. Anyway things slowly got better, the medication kicked in, i started CBT and was begining to relax around my son. Until lately all was great for most of the time I barely had an obsession. I love him so much thats why I think the thoughts hurt so badly. So basically the thought of being pregnant scares me so much. I don't think I can handle going back to the way I was. I can't bare the thought of it but want another baby so much. I get very anxious around small babies now if that make any sense. I get very nervous when I think of being in the hospital for those few days afer the birth. My husband tells me not to even think about it but as anyone with OCD knows thats what we do best - think. I know its something I will have to deal with so i think I will go back to my gp for a referral just to have some support if i do get pregnant. Thanks so much for your reply. It means a lot. x

Thanks for your reply Ange. I had cbt last year and was on prozac up to xmas. I just feel lately that it's starting to take over again. The thoughts are changing and getting more frequent. Just when you think you have had every concieveable thought and new one pops up that frightens you even more. I was able to talk to my psycholoist about all these thoughts but now I am finished I feel there is no one to turn to. I often feel like I would rather be dead than spend one more day with these horrible disgusting thought. I suppose I am looking for reassure that the thought I spoke of is OCD and I know I shouldn't be looking for that. Every so often OCD gets the better of me. It's hard to imaging going through my whole life with this. Thanks again Ange. Nice to know someone is there and listening. Sorry about the rant

Hi, I have had OCD for nearly two years now and have been through the mill with regards thoughts but have just come back from holidays where my OCD had a field day and have developed a new one. Yipee I have a little boy, his nearly two and a lot of my thoughts (harming etc) have centered around him but the lastest one is thinking he might be the devil or possessed. I am so scared. Sometimes I can't even look at him. It hurts me so much. I feel like running away. I feel so sad and lonely and have no one to turn to. I can't talk to my husband. He doesn't understand and doesn't seem to want to know. That hurts a lot too. Please tell me if this is normal or not beacuse I think i'm going mad. Thanks.

Hi Tigershark, Just to let u know u are not alone. I too am a teacher and returned to work last week. My ocd has begun to flare up again and I am getting really worried. I'm begining to think that I will not be able to stay in the job, but I have a feeling this is ocd up to its old tricks again. I have very similar thoughts to yourself. Its very difficult. I find when I am in the classroom I am ok, its when I am at home in the evening that they start to creep up on me. I was diagnosed with ocd last year after the birth of my first baby so this is the first time I have worked since then. I was so excited about going back to work. I thought the distraction would be great. My ocd had calmed down quite a bit over the past few months and I felt like my old self again but now those nagging doubts are slowly but surely returning. It is a battle and I agree with you it's very draining as you are constantly reassuring youself and battling with these thoughts over and over in your head. However I am determined to stay strong and not let it ruin my life as it did over the past year. Hope it helps to know that there is someone else out there because it really helped me when I saw your post tonight. I find its very hard to talk to someone who has never had any experience of ocd before. (aren't they the lucky ones!) Anyway chin up. Tomorrow's friday, roll on the weekend! S

Thanks Ashley for you reply. I had a look at that thread and I'm so glad because it made me see sense. My family were very wary of the course and believed that 5 days was a very short time for that amount of money with no gaurantee. They also argued that the money would be better spent on getting indivual one on one treatment. It's hard when you are desperate you would do anything to make this go away. Thanks again.

Hi all, I am desperately trying to deal with my intrusive thoughts but I feel I am just getting worse. They have changed and are becoming more and more disturbing to the point where I feel I'm doomed for a life of misery. Anyway what I really want to know is did anyone go to or hear anything about the 'OCD Centre' in London? Was talking to India Haylor about the intensive 5 day course and I would love to give it a go but it is very expensive. She said it would give me a good kick start in dealing with OCD but i'm unsure. I would apprecitate any feedback. thanks, Sibh.

Thanks for your replies. No I haven't tried CBT yet. I am waiting for an appointment with a psychologist. I was referred by the psychiatrist and I don't even know if he does CBT. It is very hard to find someone here in Ireland, especially someone you know u can trust and who knows what they are doing. There are very few trained in CBT. S

Hi, Just wondering if anybody has tried hypnotherapy for pure o and had any sucess with it?? thanks

don't worry. u are not the only one to have these thoughts. I was thinking I was the only one too and got some relief in seeing ur post. Up to now my thoughts were about harming my baby (12 weeks old - OCD started 2 weeks before the birth.) Then last week I heard something on the news about a paedophile who was sentenced and since then I have been obsessing that i could do something like that. I am terrified to hold my baby or change his nappy. I am at my wits end. I feel like this will never end!