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[Guest twoshoes]

Went out for the first time arond town, haven't been before because we have never had a babysitter, the lil' one is at his nans so we though why not?

When to a pub last night and something horrid happened (which I can't go into for fear of someone else being on the board who was in the pub and then they wii know who I am, long shot I know but...) I didn't have a panic attack and I stayed in the pub and had a good time.

To day I went out in car I was driving last nigt and I haven't done any cleansing although I did have a shower last night :blushing:

I went out today and got crapped on by a bird :lol: but I got back in the car got out a baby wipe and got on with it. No panic attack.

last week i was terrible but I seem to be back on an even keel again. OCD you are 'avin' it.

going to shower now I have waited long enough :grin:

Take care

Twoshoes

[Guest Sammyhostie]

Thats great honey, well done!

OCD you are 'avin' it.

I just love that! LOL :lol2:

Too right!!

Youre doing really really well! :blushing:

Keep strong,

Lots of love and strength

Sammie xx

[Caramoole]

Well done Twoshoes, that's great to hear :lol:

I'm having an exactly opposite day today Arrgggggghhhhhhh

It's nice to hear some good news :blushing:

[Guest Deb]

Hiya Twoshoes,

Just wanted to add my congrats. :lol:

Sounds like your doing fab. :blushing:

Debx

[Adamski]

Nice one!!!

If you can do it we all can!!

Adam

[Guest twoshoes]

Just come back from the pub and I and a little bit the worst for wear, I have had 4 bottles of Becks. This is a big thing as I started to fear alcohol I hated the fact that it could lead to a loss of awareness and that i may touch something contaminated. But today I have had a drink and a good time. I will never be a heavy drinker I don't have the frame, time, money or babysitter and I couldnt risk drinking aroun my son but it has been such a relief to go out and do the same as my friends,

few beers many laughs, next time will be when I go to visit my friends in 2 weeks and after the last few days I am looking forward to it instead of storing up all the tension and anxiety.

now should I remove my make up or just go to bed?

WOO-HOO!

Twoshoes

[Guest Sammyhostie]

Thats such great news honey, honestly.

Youve made such massive progress, its fantatsic!

You are an inspiration to us, we can all beat this.

Stay as strong as you are and leave that mascara on!!

[Guest Brainstrain]

Well done Two Shoes!!!

Brainstrain

[Guest twoshoes]

Have just been out for a meal and I ate it, normally I just pick at it and worry. It was a nice place and a good meal I even had coffee :omg:

Thanks for all your support and kind words. i feel strange saying look at this I went out and didn't have a panic attack because the Mr and my friends see this as the norm, but for me it's a big thing.

It means such a great deal to me to have you guys there and they way you understand how such small things make a huge difference to my life.

Thanks again, Take care

Twoshoes

[Caramoole]

That's absolutely great Twoshoes, there'll be no holding you now.

It's so nice to sign on and see such positive news

So was it make-up on or off

Caramoole

[Guest lilyelspeth]

CONGRATS twoshoes!

Keep it up!

[Guest twoshoes]

So was it make-up on or off wink.gif

crawled into bed in full make up, woke up next morning looking a right state, went downstairs feeling ok talking to guests, back upstairs and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, ARGH! it was no wonder they didn't want any breakfast, who want to talk food with someone who looks like a dogs dinner, proper wash and it was good old kez again.

Still feel fab, still have OCD thoughts but the anxiety that comes is manageble and short lived, now all I have to do is psych myself up for the CBT and then we get on with lowering the obsessions and complusions.

had a few bad days last week on the run up to my period, I feel my hormone fluctuations really exsaserbate my OCD anyone else. the MR can tell I am pre-menstural when I am having 4 showers a day, washing my hands for ages and constantly seeking reassurance. I had a CPN once who said there was no link but he was a fella and the Drs I have seen have been very non-committal, all you ladies out there help me out...Are we imagining this?

Many Thanks, take care

Twoshoes

[Guest Heryn]

I had a CPN once who said there was no link but he was a fella and the Drs I have seen have been very non-committal, all you ladies out there help me out...Are we imagining this?

Well done, by the way.

Er, no; not as far as I'm concerned. I've had quite a bad day, have been feeling really numb and kind of blank. Think it's a definite contributor.

[Caramoole]

Male Doctors are in complete denial about hormonal influence IMHO, they don't know what they're talking about

Well done again Twoshoes, it's a pleasure to read your posts

[Guest Kitty]

had a few bad days last week on the run up to my period, I feel my hormone fluctuations really exsaserbate my OCD anyone else. the MR can tell I am pre-menstural when I am having 4 showers a day, washing my hands for ages and constantly seeking reassurance. I had a CPN once who said there was no link but he was a fella and the Drs I have seen have been very non-committal, all you ladies out there help me out...Are we imagining this?

Yep, my Dr very non-committal too - and she's a laydee . I really honestly do believe that hormones make the OCD worse. Ok, so with me - up till recently I was taking this herbal supplement for hormones called Agnus Castus - I took it for 6 months, and while the OCD was still there in the background it didn't trouble me so much at PMT time etc. I reduced the dose in January and my next two lots of PMT and periods were horrendous, OCD was sky high and anxiety was unbelievably bad.

I really don't think we are imagining it - we just need to get those pesky darn GP's to take it more seriously...

PS - Well done Twoshoes - you're doing fab!