Guest gemgem Posted January 3, 2005 Share Posted January 3, 2005 im so scared though coz its in Bolton (about an hour away) n i still cant go to public loos!!! 25365[/snapback] Hi gemgem, Public toilets are a problem and not only amongst people with OCD - sometimes they are just horrid . However, if you can make yourself use them - it does get easier (honest!!). For quite a while I was almost housebound, due in part to the possible need to use a loo away from home, but after quite a lot of treatment (meds and therapy) I can now use loos, and the more I use, the easier it becomes. (Not that I go out purposely searching for loos, but if I do have to go it is not the nightmare it used to be.) A little word of warning (and this is mega-embarrassing ). When I was still working, I wouldn't use the loo there and one day the worst thing did happen - I didn't quite make it into the loo at home :crybaby: . I can talk about it now but at the time I was absolutely mortified - also I had to put loads of things into quarantine as well as scrub the carpet to within an inch of its life - it would have been so much easier to use the one at work!!! 25433[/snapback] yeah thats a worry too coz one of my obsessions is also wetting myself- its bonkers! i used to be obsessed with going to the loo, i had to go everywhere as soon as i arrived and just before i left and now i only go like 3 times a day- i really dont undertand this stupid condition!!! im glad that youve overcome it, i really couldntr try on my own- ill wait till the CBT starts i think Link to comment
whitebeam Posted January 3, 2005 Share Posted January 3, 2005 i really couldntr try on my own- ill wait till the CBT starts i think 25443[/snapback] I had a lot of help too - didn't do it on my own; I had both meds and therapy. Good luck with your CBT. Do you know when you might be starting it?? Link to comment
Guest gemgem Posted January 3, 2005 Share Posted January 3, 2005 i really couldntr try on my own- ill wait till the CBT starts i think 25443[/snapback] I had a lot of help too - didn't do it on my own; I had both meds and therapy. Good luck with your CBT. Do you know when you might be starting it?? 25455[/snapback] i dunno ive been waitin nerly a year so far and i was fast-tracked up the list!!! Link to comment
Guest gemgem Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Brainwash Would my brain refrain from its constant maintain? Of outside, inside, outside strain? Pity the girl, it’s a shame, Pity the girl, she’s not the same. Froget this mess you see, it’s me, Neglect, reject, your empty enemy If fact, I’ll retract, re-enact, Repackage me, Until you see, Is what you want to see. Now; if I could only kick back, relax, I’d appear better, I’d feel better, An easier task, For one more day, I’d remain, I’d last, For one more day, I’d remain, I’d last. If even for a second, my pressure could lessen, With a little ease, I’d give you a better impression, Breath out, in, out the tension, Breathe with ease, Breathe with ease, Breath out the tension. Link to comment
Guest gemgem Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 id appreciate any feedback Link to comment
Guest ZiggyShort Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Nice one, rapper! Link to comment
Guest WestDorsetBlue Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Hi, Gem A very good, well written poem. :crybaby: take care Michael Link to comment
Caramoole Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Yes, Well Done GemGem, it can be quite theraputic getting your feelings down in poetry :crybaby: Link to comment
blue Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Hi Everyone, Hope you're all o.k x I wrote this poem last night, It's not v.good but I find that writing things down often helps me. I've been feeling o.k recently and I wrote this so that I can look back at it if I feel bad again. Here goes.......... Oh o, OCD's in trouble, today I took a stand and burst it's bubble!!! Oops I made it mad! Well thats what it gets for all the times it's made me so sad. I'm going to fight you with all I've got now. You've had your say for far too long Too many times, I've given in and listened to your nasty tongue. I hate the way you've made me feel. I curse the times you've made your lies seem so real. I know you won't like me having my say....... After all, you've gotten so used to having it your way!! Well it's my time now, your time is up!! I hate you and I'm getting out. I don't care if you sceam and I don't care if you shout! It's my turn to be right and it's my time to fight. You have taken my life away. I don't deserve your nonsense in my head It's time I started listening to my heart instead. So go back to hell, where you belong. Let me be the one who knows if I'm wrong. One day you won't be here.... One day my thoughts will be calm and clear. I've got to face my fears. I've got to believe that I can do it! Got to hold on tight when you hit. I'm saying goodbye to you ocd. Living with fear is not worth the pain, You are the only one ever to gain!! I don't need you in my life, Don't need the baggage and the strife!! I just want to live, I want to be free!! And the only way i'll do it is by fighting you all the way. I won't give in, I feel strong. One day I'll say "OCD you are WRONG" and I am right. OCD, You had better get ready because you're in for a fight........... Sorry that was so long :crybaby: Thanks for reading Love Bluexx Link to comment
blue Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Aaar Thanks Ittyk :crybaby: xx I appreciate that Hope you're o.kxx Love Bluexx Link to comment
Caramoole Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Go Girl, Go Very Good Blue......that's the right attitude, you take charge :crybaby: Link to comment
blue Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Go Girl, Go Very Good Blue......that's the right attitude, you take charge :crybaby: 27357[/snapback] Thanks Caramoole I hope i can, I am definately trying xx I don't want to be this way anymore. Thanks againxx Love Bluexx Link to comment
Guest gemgem Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 its a performance poem... Link to comment
Guest lilyelspeth Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 From one writer to another: Excellent. I can see it being performed too... Link to comment
Guest enterprisenx01 Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Great one gemgem, i thought it was really good. Well Done :crybaby: Link to comment
Guest Dreamer Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 wow, that is a really good peom. dreamer :crybaby: Link to comment
blue Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 That's a brilliant poem Gemxx Well done Love Bluexx Link to comment
Guest gemgem Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 From one writer to another: Excellent. I can see it being performed too... 27379[/snapback] im glad another writer likes it! my writing is just about the only thing that keeps me going sumtimes! and i think its the only thing a pretty much housebound person can get a degree in Link to comment
Guest ocd13 Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Blue that's brillliant!! I see you're putting yourself down again by commenting on it not being very good! Well you're wrong! So there!!! :tongue: Love Andrea xx Link to comment
Guest Deb Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Blue I think your poem is fantastic!! Brilliant. Luv Deb Link to comment
Guest patsy Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Hi Blue, What a great poem Very meaningful and superbly written! Love Patsy xx Link to comment
blue Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Aaar thankyou so much That means a lot :huh: xx Thanks againxx Love Bluexx Link to comment
blue Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Blue that's brillliant!! I see you're putting yourself down again by commenting on it not being very good! Well you're wrong! So there!!! :tongue: Love Andrea xx 27454[/snapback] Cheers Hun :hug: I think it's one of the things I've got to work on!! :tongue: Next time I will try and :huh: when I catch myself doing it Thanks again Andreaxx I really appreciate thatxx Love Bluexx Link to comment
Guest ScottOCDid Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Hi Blue, Like it!!!!! Well done on such a positive and determined message! :group: :huh: :clap: :clap: :clap: :clapping: :clap: :clapping: :clap: :clapping: :clap: Link to comment
blue Posted January 12, 2005 Share Posted January 12, 2005 Thankyou Scott :huh: I appreciate that I really hope I can keep it up :group: Thanks againxx Hope you're o.kxx Love Bluexx Link to comment
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