no desire to live

[Binxy]

Hope you're feeling a bit better today Bruces.

Binx

[bruces]

I dont know whether to try and get the decision reversed i dont like being out of my comfort zone?

[Superblade]

none of us do mate but sometimes you,ve got to go there to come back, get to your gp today and make the first step on your road to recovery, hope you have a bit better day today

[Guest Annabel]

Hi Bruces,

Caramoole has given some great advice.

Take the pressure off yourself, you don't have to do anything but go to the toilet and eat until you're feeling a bit better but you might need some help to get from this point to feeling better.

I don't think you made a silly decision at all Bruces, you were bored of your job and your Dad's business seemed like a good idea. It's the kind of choice anyone might pick, there's nothing poor about the decision but our illness does have a tendency to get in the way of things and that's what happened.

Have you been eating recently? if not maybe you could order a take-away for lunch or dinner so that you have something in to eat and then you won't have to cook or anything?

I'm not sure whether redundancy decisions can get reversed? I suppose you could ask, but the main thing is to get well. Maybe you'll end up finding a better job? xx

Edited October 29, 2012 by Annabel

[Guest syzyzy]

Hi bruces

OCD sufferers are always with you.

Edited October 29, 2012 by Ashley
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[bruces]

The problem is now ive made the decision ive made myself regret it,if i hadnt taken it i would have regretted that too there is no escape,but my job at the moment is pretty easy and well paid i dont have to make any decisions im in a protective enviroment a business is completely different,it would be a great decision to leave for someone normal but not for me,i dont have the necessary qualities to be a business man ie assertivness and being decisive etc

[Guest Annabel]

Hi Bruces,

As in the business you're currently running is a good job? or the one you were in before? how are you feeling now? xx

[bruces]

The one im in now i dont finish till the end of march its a good job at the moment but its going to get privatised in 2013 so will be different currently my mind is racing with all different scenarios about different things i feel my head is ready to explode,this and other things cant stop ruminating over my ex girlfriend as well its like a snow globe in my mind that has bn shook up

[bruces]

So many worries and anxietys constantly churning over with a sickly feeling in my stomach

[Guest Annabel]

That sounds really hard. Perhaps if your redundancy isn't until March then you could ask to be kept on? xx

[bruces]

I dont think they would,i dont know if i should try i dont know what to do

[Guest JC123]

Maybe you could ask them and see what they say, there's no harm in asking

[bruces]

Im so low

[Guest Annabel]

Aw Bruces. Have you spoken to your family/friends? x

[bruces]

My friends have disowned me

[Guest Annabel]

Oh that's awful. They're definitely not worth having as friends then.

What about family?

xxx

[bruces]

Dont know what to say cant say how i truely feel,just want to go to sleep and not wake up

[bruces]

Thinking about it all the time now

[Guest JC123]

You have all got us as friends we are all here for you

[bruces]

Im constantly thinking of suicide

[Guest Annabel]

Hi Bruces,

Can you 999 or go to A&E?. JC123 is right, you have all of us.

xx

[bruces]

I cant go to a and e and say im suicidal

[Guest Annabel]

Why not? people do it everyday x

Edited October 29, 2012 by Annabel

[bruces]

And what would they do?

[Guest Annabel]

I think their main priority would be to keep you safe but I don't know cos I haven't been myself. Would phoning a crisis line help?

xx