Doubting I even have OCD?

[Guest heartplace]

Do you ever have this fear that you may not actually HAVE OCD, despite all the bad thoughts and compulsions you perform? My mom told me a while back that I wasn't having near as much trouble as I started to after I read about OCD, but I was! I just didn't know what the heck it was and kept it all internalized for too long (almost a decade). Now I just happen to know the source of my pain. But after she said that I began to doubt even having the disorder and wondered if maybe I deliberately did bad things instead of having uncontrollable thoughts and doubts. It was scary to think about!

Edited April 15, 2014 by heartplace

[Purplepiper7]

I do. It started after my mom called me an attention seeker for the first time, long long ago (okay, well a little bit less than a year). I started thinking that I did this all on purpose, etc. It's a frightening thought.

[Miranda123]

I had the same thoughts about twice each lasting about a month and then I just forgot about them and they went away for 5 years. That's the only thing that helps me to know it is ocd!

[Guest heartplace]

My doubts went away for maybe a couple of weeks, but now I'm doubting I even have it again! It's very scary because I honestly would rather have OCD than deliberately do something wrong.

Edited April 15, 2014 by heartplace

[Guest irretractable]

That's an ongoing doubt for me. I wonder whether I'm just constructing symptoms to get attention or as an excuse for my shortcoming. Or that it's convenient to think I have OCD rather than I'm actually doing something wrong.

[Guest legend]

remember the cliche , if it feels like ocd then it probably is , and by applying this and implementing cbt techniques

you wil get better