Guest penny0305 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 I am on a reducing.dose of.diazepam to try.and get me.off the.clonazepam a private psychiatrist prescribed over a year ago.I am struggling so badly.I feel like.I am drugged up and.walking through Treacle all the time yet my anxiety and ocd are still.sky.high.it takes me ages to get going in the.morning.everything feels like a monumental effort.I don't know.how much longer I can carry.on like this.I know I need to get off them but I didn't feel like this on clonazepam.at least I could.function. I feel like these are more addicting than the clonazepam.I just feel ill with it now and.I'm.not even.taking the.full prescribed dose.I'm trying to take as little as possible to get off them quicker and.stop this awful drugged up feeling.I just.don't.know what to do anymore.my gp doesn't.even want to see me.during the.taper.she just said just to stick.with it but I feel.so.awful and.desperate Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 Anyone? I could really do with someone to talk to.I'm struggling so much it's unbearable Link to comment
joanne123 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 Hi I have been taking Diazapam lately, What dose were you on to start with. I just take one when I feel really bad and the the doctor told me this is ok. I am not sure about the other tablets your on I have never had those x Link to comment
Caramoole Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 Did you ever join the Benzo Forum? You would probably get a lot of help/tips perhaps Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 I did join the forum but people rarely reply.I just feel desperate Link to comment
Guest jayjay89 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 Trying to cut down your dose so quickly could be part of the problem, maybe try going back up to the prescribed dose and ease of slowly, benzo withdrawal can be as bad as coming off heroin! Don't rush it! Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 I feel so much more depressed on diazepam.the clonazepam.didn't make me feel like this. I feel doped up but still really anxious and my.ocd is in overdrive. I wish id just stayed on clonazepam because at least I could.function. I feel so depressed I just feel like taking the whole.packet Link to comment
Guest jayjay89 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 (edited) I absolutely don't mean to sound harsh but you need to take what uou are prescribed or you need to go to the gp today and tell them you aren't and how you feel! Also unless your packet is massive (like 50+ pills and have a bunch of other stuff to mix with it) taking the whole packet is probably not going to change your situation, I ate 72 benzos at the start of the year, all it did was put me to sleep for a bit. Anyway, please ring the dr apand just explain where you are at, it's possible to swap from clom to diaz while taking both at the same time which is possibly what you need to do... Or maybe now isn't the right time for your meds to change... Only your gp/dr can help you right now, good luck! Edited July 2, 2014 by jayjay89 Link to comment
Guest jayjay89 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 Although I provably did some damage to my bodya, don't do anything silly, get yourself some help! Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 I just feel so desperate.my ocd is off the scale and I just can't, cope anymore., my behaviour isn't normal, I truly feel that I'm going insane. I am obsessing over everything and I feel so ill. I'm at the point where life isn't worth living anymore. Link to comment
Guest Plex Posted July 2, 2014 Share Posted July 2, 2014 I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Penny. If you are feeling this desperate then talking to your doctor again is probably a good idea. He/she may not have expected you to have such a difficult time and might agree to a slower taper to try and minimize the difficulty you're having adjusting. Do you feel that you're able to be firm with your doctor? Sometimes we need to be forceful in getting our concerns addressed. If the current plan is going to make you so unwell that you're having thoughts of harming yourself to escape the distress then it's very important that you let your GP know. Link to comment
Northern Star Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 Hi Penny, I echo Plex's words about telling your doctor how bad things are. Could you ring them first thing and ask for an urgent appointment? Please stay safe. Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 I just.want.to.die now.I've had.enough.the.doctor won't.help and.I can't.do this anymore.my.life.is over, it's.not.worth.living Link to comment
njb Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 penny0305, if you are there please don't do anything silly sweetie. We are all here for you. Medication can be a very key component in improvement but can be a hit and miss exercise. You are very brave - don't forget that and it is all OCD. I know it feels like so much effort but it is worth continuing. You must seek medical help and maybe call a relative or friend to speak with your surgery. Please please take a difficult step and keep going. Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 I just can't.I've had enough.this life is torture and not worth living anymore Link to comment
njb Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 I've had moments too penny - there are so many people who would just want to cuddle you. Please call someone. x Link to comment
Gemzi3 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 Hope your ok Penny, there's always someone here , they've all helped me so much. Please speak to someone xxx Link to comment
Northern Star Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 Hi Penny, If this doctor won't listen, is there another at the practice you could speak to? Failing that, if you're thinking of harming yourself PLEASE get yourself to A&E. There will be people there who can help. :hug: Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 I've.got a doctors appointment this afternoon.but I.don't hold out any hope.they'll just tell me to.stick with the diazepam.at least I didn't feel suicidal on clonazepam.I just can't see any point to my life anymore.it's torture from morning to night Link to comment
Guest penny0305 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 My cbt has ended and I just feel abandoned.it was no help at all and I feel like I have no coping mechanisms for when things are this bad.I just go into meltdown.I can't take another day of it Link to comment
njb Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 Penny - has your Doctor suggested SSRi as opposed Benzo ? Link to comment
Guest Plex Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 Penny please go to A&E if you can't see your doctor, at the bare minimum you can get a second opinion on the plan for your meds. But it's extremely important that you let someone who can help know what you're feeling right now. Link to comment
Guest OCDelighted Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 My cbt has ended and I just feel abandoned.it was no help at all and I feel like I have no coping mechanisms for when things are this bad.I just go into meltdown.I can't take another day of it You would be surprised. Link to comment
joanne123 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 I am feeling like you at the moment but you are stronger than you realise, I never think I can get through each day but if you keep fighting you can do it. You never know how strong you are til being strong is the only choice you have. x Link to comment
felix4 Posted July 3, 2014 Share Posted July 3, 2014 Penny, I know you are at your wits end, but it sounds to me like you are heading in the right direction, & need to ride out the storm a while longer, & it will then get easier & easier! (still try & see a doc though!) I used to feel bad on diazepam, but I'd sooner be on that, as opposed to feeling more than okay on something even more highly addictive. You'll get there in the end! Are you allowed a drink at all in moderation? Link to comment
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