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I have health OCD. I found out that I'll have to have a cornea transplant. I'm terrified I'm might go blind. All there I was planning to do will have to be on standby. I feel like, lately, I have been abandoned by God... I'm afraid...........please.....help,please

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HI Gemma7

Thank you for your reply. I just went through a moment of panic. But my OCD tends to be strong with health issues. I've been suffering since I was 8. Now I'm 33 and I've been on medication for a decade. My OCD triggered a Major Depression. But now I don´t feel much relieve from meds... Only Zoloft calms a bit down. Then I turn to psychotherapy. I read Dr.Schwartz's book. That helped me a lot. (I'm from Portugal, by the way. So if I make any mistakes, please understand) But as you might know CBT is difficult, sometimes. Lately I've been diagnosed with a disease of the cornea. My eye doctor told me that the solution would be a transplant. She calmed me down. Then she refered me to a cornea specialist. I have an appointment next monday. You may know that uncertainty might be one of the most difficult things that a person with OCD has to deal with. And I hate hospitals, medical exams, check ups, etc... And now life throws this situation at me...Meds hardly help, psychotheray has been difficult...so I turned to this site and the forum. I noticed that other people with ocd just understand better and are able to help better. There's not a forum for ocd in Portugal... all I want is peace of mind and to have the "Ex-sufferer" status... :helpsmilie:

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Hi I mentioned on your other thread that I know someone with kerataconus. So if you want to ask a little about that feel free although I won't give reassurance with respect to ocd.

Have you tried the book 'break free from ocd' it has helped me a lot with the cognitive side of therapy. It is written in English so don't know if that is ok for you.

It is really hard when something occurs that triggers our ocd so I understand how you are feeling. You need to have your eye looked at and maybe treated that you know for sure so you need to look at how you can think and behave differently.

Try not to ruminate about the eye condition it will almost certainly lead to you catastrophising, don't research it on the internet you will get extreme results only, which won't help you. Stick to listening to the experts you see.

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Thinking of you, Ania. Surgery is scary for anyone, but health OCD certainly makes it a lot harder. That said, it sounds like you understand the disorder very well and know what you need to do: let OCD do its thing and make a lot of noise about all the scary things that will happen. You just notice those thought-feelings and get back to whatever you were doing. The fears will take some time but they will fade out if you pay them no attention.

On a separate note, maybe you should start at Portuguese OCD forum? Your English is amazingly good so of course you can easily come here but I bet others in Portugal and Brazil who suffer like we do would be helped tremendously. (Just a suggestion!)

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HI Gemma7

Thank you for your reply. I just went through a moment of panic. But my OCD tends to be strong with health issues. I've been suffering since I was 8. Now I'm 33 and I've been on medication for a decade. My OCD triggered a Major Depression. But now I don´t feel much relieve from meds... Only Zoloft calms a bit down. Then I turn to psychotherapy. I read Dr.Schwartz's book. That helped me a lot. (I'm from Portugal, by the way. So if I make any mistakes, please understand) But as you might know CBT is difficult, sometimes. Lately I've been diagnosed with a disease of the cornea. My eye doctor told me that the solution would be a transplant. She calmed me down. Then she refered me to a cornea specialist. I have an appointment next monday. You may know that uncertainty might be one of the most difficult things that a person with OCD has to deal with. And I hate hospitals, medical exams, check ups, etc... And now life throws this situation at me...Meds hardly help, psychotheray has been difficult...so I turned to this site and the forum. I noticed that other people with ocd just understand better and are able to help better. There's not a forum for ocd in Portugal... all I want is peace of mind and to have the "Ex-sufferer" status... :helpsmilie:

Try to resist thinking about the problem and do other activities which can make you focus on other things.

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Hi Gemma,

yes I've read the book. And thank God I did. I've learned so much about this devil disorder. But as you know there are stronger obsessions and sometimes it's really hard. Tomorrow i'll have an appointment in the eye institute. Of course I'm anticipating the worst...and right now at this very moment the ocd is telling me terrible things.Magical thinking can terrible... The OCD is telling me that I shouldn't be writing on this forum (can you believe that?!?!) It's telling me that I should isolated and scared...But I'm writing anyways...!

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Thinking of you, Ania. Surgery is scary for anyone, but health OCD certainly makes it a lot harder. That said, it sounds like you understand the disorder very well and know what you need to do: let OCD do its thing and make a lot of noise about all the scary things that will happen. You just notice those thought-feelings and get back to whatever you were doing. The fears will take some time but they will fade out if you pay them no attention.

On a separate note, maybe you should start at Portuguese OCD forum? Your English is amazingly good so of course you can easily come here but I bet others in Portugal and Brazil who suffer like we do would be helped tremendously. (Just a suggestion!)

Yes Sodovka, for someone with health OCD this is hell! And yes I understand this devilish disorder but sometimes I feel weaker... The noise that you're talking about sounds so "real"... That's my main problem. The obsessions seem to be so REAL that I simply feel overwhelmed...

Thank you, for my english. I've read so many things about OCD and the majority are in english. And yes I should start a portuguese forum. OCD patients in Portugal don't have much support other than the doctors...

But thank you for your help :original:

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