lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 I don't know if you guys know the song 'In my feelings' by Drake but the lyrics go 'Kiki', do you love me? Are you riding?' so I was singing it to my little sister changing the name and when I said' are you riding?' I was laughing and imagined her riding me sexually tho I didn't completely imagine it it was a bit blurry but I did! And now I feel AWFUL like how could I Link to comment
Emsie Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 What type of thought is this Lily? And what have you given it? What did it cause you? And what was posting on here? Sorry to ask you the questions Lily, but if you can get there yourself then it’s better for you and your understanding of how ocd works. Be kind to yourself. X Link to comment
lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Author Share Posted August 23, 2018 (edited) It was definitely NOT an intrusive thought... I was laughing about it, like I had bad intention I'm sure !!! I'm devastated... Edited August 23, 2018 by lily17 Link to comment
Emsie Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 1 minute ago, lily17 said: It was definitely NOT an intrusive thought... I was laughing about it, like I had bad intention I'm sure !!! I'm devastated... Did it pop in to your head? Has it caused you distress? Have you carried out any compulsions? Link to comment
lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Author Share Posted August 23, 2018 It didn't pop in my head like I thought it myself... And yeah it has caused me distressed and I carried out the compulsion or re-imagining it... Link to comment
Emsie Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 (edited) And the compulsion of posting on here. It was a thought from your brain Lily. What do you think this is Lily? Edited August 23, 2018 by Emsie Link to comment
Emsie Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 I deleted some of my last message as it was bordering on reassurance. Link to comment
lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Author Share Posted August 23, 2018 8 minutes ago, Emsie said: And the compulsion of posting on here. It was a thought from your brain Lily. What do you think this is Lily? I'm sure it was not... God... I hate myself so much for thinking this... I do not want to live anymore Link to comment
lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Author Share Posted August 23, 2018 Like I was messing around singing the song and I pulled off a smiley face and I was like laughing and I imagined it, I fantasized... Link to comment
Emsie Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 (edited) Please talk to someone close to you like your mum or take yourself to hospital (the equivalent of accident and emergency in Spain) if you are having any serious thoughts about not living anymore. Please get help if you need it. Edited August 23, 2018 by Emsie Link to comment
lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Author Share Posted August 23, 2018 7 minutes ago, Emsie said: Please talk to someone close to you like your mum or take yourself to hospital (the equivalent of accident and emergency in Spain) if you are having any serious thoughts about not living anymore. Please get help if you need it. I'm not currently at home and I don't wanna go to hospital again... Pfff... Link to comment
Emsie Posted August 23, 2018 Share Posted August 23, 2018 Please get some help if you need it Lily. I have to sign off now as I’m off out. Look after yourself. Link to comment
lily17 Posted August 23, 2018 Author Share Posted August 23, 2018 1 minute ago, Emsie said: Please get some help if you need it Lily. I have to sign off now as I’m off out. Look after yourself. Okay Emsie don't worry, thank you. Link to comment
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