ocdsufferer85 Posted October 18, 2018 Share Posted October 18, 2018 Not been on here for ages, had a really bad month (not ocd related) so my mind has been pretty busy worrying over something else. Then I had a break and felt good, I have been able to shake off any intrusions and get on with my days but the last couple of days it's been creeping in. I can feel it bubbling and wanting to be gone through, I start to then I stop...what can I do to stay logical and stay away from it? I've been able to put it in a box but it's trying to get out. It didn't seem as important but it's causing anxiety again. I feel like if I ignore it I'm a bad person denying my evil deeds...and if I don't ignore it I'll be back at rock bottom...ruminating etc It can be shook off and seem small some days then others it seems real and I then have thoughts like "but who would do that" and "you know you were bad" How do I keep fighting? Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted October 18, 2018 Share Posted October 18, 2018 You need to see it for what it is, OCD. When you weren't focusing on it you felt better, then the moment you have time to focus on OCD, you feel responsible to figure it all out again. You don't need to do that, not at all. You need to accept the uncertainty these thoughts bring because you have just seen what life could be like ignoring it, a whole lot better, you deserve that. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted October 18, 2018 Share Posted October 18, 2018 Those thoughts you are getting, like, 'who would do that', are intrusive thoughts. Leave them alone. You are not required to answer them. Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted October 23, 2018 Author Share Posted October 23, 2018 Thanks guys Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 6, 2018 Author Share Posted November 6, 2018 On 18/10/2018 at 17:39, PolarBear said: Those thoughts you are getting, like, 'who would do that', are intrusive thoughts. Leave them alone. You are not required to answer them. It keeps creeping back and making me go through it, I'm worrying Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 6, 2018 Author Share Posted November 6, 2018 On 18/10/2018 at 15:36, Gemma7 said: You need to see it for what it is, OCD. When you weren't focusing on it you felt better, then the moment you have time to focus on OCD, you feel responsible to figure it all out again. You don't need to do that, not at all. You need to accept the uncertainty these thoughts bring because you have just seen what life could be like ignoring it, a whole lot better, you deserve that. It's hard when it comes back Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 6, 2018 Share Posted November 6, 2018 4 hours ago, ocdsufferer85 said: It keeps creeping back and making me go through it, I'm worrying Nothing is 'making' you do anything. It's a learned response. You can learn a new way. Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 6, 2018 Author Share Posted November 6, 2018 I have, but it only lasts so long. What do I do now? Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 6, 2018 Share Posted November 6, 2018 (edited) You keep at it. You keep refusing to go over it in your mind. You keep trying to leave it alone. You get on with other aspects of your life. It took you years to get here by doing things wrong. It will take at least months and months to see a positive difference. Edited November 6, 2018 by PolarBear Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 6, 2018 Author Share Posted November 6, 2018 My mind is stuck on a part of it wondering why I reacted in a strange way Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 6, 2018 Share Posted November 6, 2018 Refuse to try and find an answer. Let it go. Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 7, 2018 Author Share Posted November 7, 2018 @PolarBear do I put it down to ocd, I have read other people's stories where they had a thought and they just did it and they don't know why, I find it so difficult to accept it's ocd. Should they, and should I? And just leave it? Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 7, 2018 Share Posted November 7, 2018 We've been through this many times before. It doesn't matter what happened back then. It just doesn't. Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 7, 2018 Author Share Posted November 7, 2018 I'm not asking what happened. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 7, 2018 Share Posted November 7, 2018 You constantly go back to that one moment in time. You go over it in your head constantly. You try to figure out what happened. Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 7, 2018 Author Share Posted November 7, 2018 No polar I'm wondering why and what caused it. For me to one day feel I could take it on, and it ended up with me spiking and being fooled! Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 7, 2018 Author Share Posted November 7, 2018 It was a moment where I thought "this time you can't win" and then...ocd won. I wish I saw it coming! Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 8, 2018 Share Posted November 8, 2018 See, there's your problem. You are stuck on that one moment, trying to figure it out. You've been doing thst for years and you haven't figured it out. Do you really think more time trying to figure it out will suddenly give you a new result? Link to comment
ocdsufferer85 Posted November 8, 2018 Author Share Posted November 8, 2018 I know. No I don't want to get sucked back in. Hoping it's just a glitch. I've been doing so much resisting of ruminating. You're only seeing the bad times, I've not been here for ages. I just get blips. Its rubbish. I want it gone forever. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted November 8, 2018 Share Posted November 8, 2018 I understand. I know you haven't been here for quite a while. I hope things were peaceful for you during that time. Link to comment
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