I have a pathetic miserable existence that im not sure I can handle anymore.

[humbleno1]

I dont even know why Im positing, but oh well. just thought someone ought to know.

[Gemma7]

You can handle more, you will surprise yourself I'm sure, are you getting any help with your OCD? 

[humbleno1]

3 hours ago, Gemma7 said:

You can handle more, you will surprise yourself I'm sure, are you getting any help with your OCD? 

no i cant im so angry !!!! urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! im gonna ******* pop.

[paradoxer]

'We are all living in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars'. Oscar Wilde

 

 

[humbleno1]

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[humbleno1]

20 hours ago, paradoxer said:

'We are all living in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars'. Oscar Wilde

 

 

can u make ur pms available para

[paradoxer]

2 hours ago, humbleno1 said:

can u make ur pms available para

I changed the setting, should be able to receive pm now. 

[humbleno1]

doesnt seem to be working ill just post here what the heck

I was hoping to ask your advice im thinking of going with the therapy with phillipson office but its like 60 pound a session which is steep for me but I know I need it, I dont know, I just keep going over the fact that I actually did that action, I know I shouldnt I talked to an obstetrician but I told him that, a toddler sat on baby head instead because I didnt think he would understand and he basically debunked my concern now surely that is worse than a squeeze of bone down with little finger quite far anyway to check (stupidly) and i just keep thinking but it must have been touching the brain and that pressure there is always a chance some chance, but its not that its the fact that it was my action im obsessed with anyway, I dont know I know I need the therapy, but I never wanted my child to be affected by this at all, and i feel like a real p.o.s simply ove ri now realise it was all to alleviate my own anxiety albeit it was ruining my experience and my life, its creating a depression because before she was born i said i would never let it affect her and it has.

Have u ever had therapy paradoxer, and I just keep thinking like i know what they are going to say all the time, and its alot of money to hear something you already know but i also need tht support, i had therapy with jan weiner before, and she asked me first of all to stop talking about it not this something else, and i spent like 6 sessions struggling to do just that as a start i couldnt afford to keep it going now dont get me wrong it was extremely supportive but alot of money at the time, anyway just wondering ur 2 penneth, its the guilt of the action that is killing me and the chance. and the of how far it went in, why did i let it go that far in hold it etc, teh danger so many factors.

 

sorry to rant. i wrote this previously on the forum in more eloquent detail but i couldnt post it which is why edited my post,

[humbleno1]

On 23/10/2018 at 03:17, paradoxer said:

I changed the setting, should be able to receive pm now. 

not working bro.

[dksea]

You might have to delete older messages to make room. Unfortunately the space limit is very very small.

[paradoxer]

Thanks, deleted a few messages. Not sure if the settings became inadvertently changed. humbleno1 you might want to try again.

[paradoxer]

19 hours ago, dksea said:

You might have to delete older messages to make room. Unfortunately the space limit is very very small.

Cheers. 

[beckyboo]

On 23/10/2018 at 03:56, humbleno1 said:

doesnt seem to be working ill just post here what the heck

I was hoping to ask your advice im thinking of going with the therapy with phillipson office but its like 60 pound a session which is steep for me but I know I need it, I dont know, I just keep going over the fact that I actually did that action, I know I shouldnt I talked to an obstetrician but I told him that, a toddler sat on baby head instead because I didnt think he would understand and he basically debunked my concern now surely that is worse than a squeeze of bone down with little finger quite far anyway to check (stupidly) and i just keep thinking but it must have been touching the brain and that pressure there is always a chance some chance, but its not that its the fact that it was my action im obsessed with anyway, I dont know I know I need the therapy, but I never wanted my child to be affected by this at all, and i feel like a real p.o.s simply ove ri now realise it was all to alleviate my own anxiety albeit it was ruining my experience and my life, its creating a depression because before she was born i said i would never let it affect her and it has.

Have u ever had therapy paradoxer, and I just keep thinking like i know what they are going to say all the time, and its alot of money to hear something you already know but i also need tht support, i had therapy with jan weiner before, and she asked me first of all to stop talking about it not this something else, and i spent like 6 sessions struggling to do just that as a start i couldnt afford to keep it going now dont get me wrong it was extremely supportive but alot of money at the time, anyway just wondering ur 2 penneth, its the guilt of the action that is killing me and the chance. and the of how far it went in, why did i let it go that far in hold it etc, teh danger so many factors.

 

sorry to rant. i wrote this previously on the forum in more eloquent detail but i couldnt post it which is why edited my post,

between £40/£45 and £60 for a GOOD therapist with specialist knowledge of OCD is about right. 

I currently do CBT and have to travel out of area, it costs but the way i see it. wbich is more expensive? living life and wasting time ruminating and creating ourselves pain and suffering OR paying for therapy that can give you some normality and a good chance at recovery.