Feeling rough but getting there

[Ollie46]

I’ve been putting in some serious work in order to recover from my little relapse and get better. It’s been a struggle, in fact at point sits felt like as much as a struggle as it did before I even discovered this forum and got my therapy! It can be a gruelling task and I’ve had some pretty awful days. Right now I’m ill, caught a nasty cold from my housemate, so I’m feeling pretty rubbish anyway. And OCD will always exploit when I’m not feeling too great.

But in fairness, improvements have been seen and that’s what I suppose I should focus on. I started going back to the gym after a bit of a hiatus, it’s been really good because I have a physical outlet for my anxiety. I catch myself ruminating and stop myself almost immediately sometimes. Sometimes it still gets me and will either put me in a state of anxiety or extreme misery and self-loathing, but I’m at least catching it more. Today I feel pretty **** and I did some ERP stuff that wasn’t exactly a failure but didn’t exactly go super well either and I’m just a bit down about it.

Thought I might post here just because it’s been a few days and I think I’ll feel more human if I tell people who actually get it. Hope you’re all doing well! I’m sure I’ll get there again, hopefully sooner rather than later.