Becoming a mess, alcohol and therapy

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I've been drinking more than I should lately,I know I shouldn't but it's a viscous cycle of drinking to give my brain a break and then suffering more the next day,I'm worried it's becoming a problem again.

My therapist seems good and understanding but it's brought back some horrible thoughts and fantasies I had over 20 years ago that it took me along time put behind me,I was on drugs from age 11 and my brain went to some dark places,don't know why this would re surface, hungover and very panaky

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How do I delete this post please,it's my therapist I should be working with as I've already discussed it with her this is just reassurance