Struggling im losing my mind.

[humbleno1]

the thought of living with the possibility of me, causing the death of my own child is somethinig im struggling to live with i just cant, accept this - its destroying me.

[humbleno1]

surprise surprise nobody cares god im all alone.

[PolarBear]

There are many reasons why no one has replied until now. It is not always easy to find the right words in every situation.

What you are experiencing is perfectly normal in an OCD world. The fact that you hate the thoughts of harming your children speaks to your inability to do it. What would be really scary is if you liked the thoughts. You don't, so take solace in that.

The problem you have is that you react to the thoughts. By doing so you give them credence. Treat them like the garbage they are and you'll end up in a much better place.

[humbleno1]

Yeh but its not about that its about that event and worrying if it effeected polarbear u know the on e i told u about before.