don't know Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 How do I know this is ocd? I'm so desperate that I've started posting on other Internet forums. They say I sound like I have OCD, but I don't know. I feel like I have to confess every part of my life to them in order to get a proper answer. I also don't know whether I've read up so much about OCD to the point where I can perfectly craft a post looking like it. I'm just so confused and worn out over this. I don't have intrusive thoughts where they pop into my head and cause anxiety it's just like a feeling. I have no anxiety anymore just a general state of confusion; never truly knowing anything. Are my obsessions true if I'm coming into my fourth year of them? I feel like I relate to nothing. Link to comment
taurean Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 You are obsessing about whether you have OCD (O) or not, carrying out compulsions (C) such as multiple posts on various forums, and you are upset and distressed (D) Add them up, what do you get? O + C + D + OCD ! Whether individual triggers/intrusive thoughts are a theme of OCD ? Feelings are a common issue with OCD - look beneath them and see if you can spot the negative repetitive core belief that is generating them; this will be the obsession. Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 This sounds like OCD. All you have is uncertainty and doubt to quite extreme levels that you're unsure of most things. That is a hallmark of trying to answer too many questions and trying to make sure of too many things. You can't know you have OCD and you can't wait till you feel like your problem is OCD before you start tackling it. You need to act now as if you have OCD, it is the only way you'll get any clarity. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 (edited) You have been asking this question for months now. You've been asking here and elsewhere. How's that working for you? You are asking for reassurance. You are repeatedly told you have OCD. You get thoughts that it's not OCD. You are ask for more reassueance. And round and round you go. What you don't realize is that this is OCD. This cycle of doubts about having OCD and reassurance compulsions is OCD. We are not helping you by giving you reassurance every time. It has to stop. You need to stop asking these questions on multiple sites. We need to stop reassuring you. Absolutely no harm will come to you by treating your condition as OCD. Edited January 7, 2019 by PolarBear Link to comment
kaheath80 Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 Maybe my article published last month might help you http://www.youandmemagazine.com/articles/the-irony-obsessing-over-obsessive-compulsive-disorder Link to comment
jamie2011 Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 18 minutes ago, kaheath80 said: Maybe my article published last month might help you http://www.youandmemagazine.com/articles/the-irony-obsessing-over-obsessive-compulsive-disorder Don't want to intrude on the above posters thread, but thank you for posting that link. I can relate so much to what you have written. Something I am struggling a lot with right now, but you have explained it very well. Link to comment
kaheath80 Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 1 hour ago, jamie2011 said: Don't want to intrude on the above posters thread, but thank you for posting that link. I can relate so much to what you have written. Something I am struggling a lot with right now, but you have explained it very well. Thanks for the comment I’m glad it helped. Link to comment
felix4 Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 9 hours ago, don't know said: I'm so desperate that I've started posting on other Internet forums. They say I sound like I have OCD, but I don't know. I feel like I have to confess every part of my life to them in order to get a proper answer. These other internet forums sound quite good then!..... As in, not freely handing out reassurance to OCD sufferers. Don't Know, it almost looks like this has shifted from fears about your sexuality, to a new easier fast-track compulsion of getting reassurance that you have OCD! It really does appear that you are getting temporary relief from being told you have OCD, until the next time comes along! Like I said on your previous thread, it is as if you have a slightly more complex case of OCD here, and might need more in the way of specialist help. Link to comment
don't know Posted January 7, 2019 Author Share Posted January 7, 2019 thanks for the replies Kaheath80 - thanks for the link to the article. I had read it before and actually used it as reassurance that it was ocd that I was dealing with. It's a great article I'm just done to be honest. I'm scared because the thought of it being complex confuses me and makes me think it's not OCD because wouldn't it just look the same as everyone else? I just feel like a fraud to be honest. Link to comment
taurean Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 Go back to PolarBear's post and read and re-read it until you see the pointlessness of what you are doing. Take a look at his how to stop ruminating video and you will see how what you are doing only strengthens the intrusions. You are stuck seeking answers without a resolution. PolarBear's video will tell you how to stop this and start to break free. Link to comment
dksea Posted January 8, 2019 Share Posted January 8, 2019 1 hour ago, don't know said: wouldn't it just look the same as everyone else? My OCD experience is different form Taurean's whose experience is different from Polar Bear's whose is different from yours. The general pattern is the same, but the details vary from person to person. Sure we can focus on the smaller details to try and find how the two things are different, but at the core, where it counts they are the same. Don't focus on the differences, accept the core similarities and treat your OCD as OCD even though you have doubts that it might be OCD. If i'm driving a brand new, four door, luxury sedan and you are driving a 10 year old, two door, entry model pickup truck, and we both run out of gasoline/petrol the problem is fuel and refueling is the fix. It doesn't matter what the differences are between the two vehicles we are driving, it matters that the same underlying problem is present in both. Link to comment
don't know Posted January 8, 2019 Author Share Posted January 8, 2019 I've ended up spending an hour (?) looking up the difference between being in denial and actually liking the sexual thoughts. I feel calmer knowing that I don't relate. But, I'm guessing that was the wrong thing to do. Link to comment
felix4 Posted January 8, 2019 Share Posted January 8, 2019 1 hour ago, don't know said: I'm just done to be honest. I'm scared because the thought of it being complex confuses me and makes me think it's not OCD because wouldn't it just look the same as everyone else? I just feel like a fraud to be honest. Sorry DK, I never meant to cause upset, confusion, or make you feel like a fraud, but was just trying to explain where your OCD appears to differ slightly in that you are craving reassurance that it is OCD. And in which case, are we therefore making it worse for you by saying yes it is all the time, like any other forum post which seeks reassurance? Link to comment
Orwell1984 Posted January 8, 2019 Share Posted January 8, 2019 6 minutes ago, don't know said: I've ended up spending an hour (?) looking up the difference between being in denial and actually liking the sexual thoughts. I feel calmer knowing that I don't relate. But, I'm guessing that was the wrong thing to do. Do you not see that the act of trying to figure things out is the very thing that is making the doubts stronger? For the half hour or less of reassurance this gives you, you are ensuring the questions will become more intense, more fear inducing and will last longer. It's like a drug addict getting a hit. Link to comment
don't know Posted January 8, 2019 Author Share Posted January 8, 2019 Felix4 - no, I'm sorry! I completely understand how that could be difficult because reassurance isn't good for you in the long run. Orwell1984 - I understand. I kept looking and now I don't know but still have a bit of relief because I scrolled past a sexual image and felt uncomfortable but I felt like I got wet - so I'm confused by it. I shouldn't have looked anything up anyway. It did make it worse. Link to comment
taurean Posted January 8, 2019 Share Posted January 8, 2019 The carrying out of any compulsion may bring short term gain but it will only ever bring long term pain. Link to comment
don't know Posted January 8, 2019 Author Share Posted January 8, 2019 I've gone back into it, it's too much. It goes away when I don't think about it or if I've got something more important. I don't know what my feelings truly are. I'm trying to stay away from the forums but I keep going back to them. I will read multiple posts as a form of reassurance and then I read one that panics me. Link to comment
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