bruces Posted April 21, 2019 Share Posted April 21, 2019 Does anybody have daily suicidal thoughts but not actually want to die? It really is quite the strangest sensation! Link to comment
Lost_in_a_Dark_Maze Posted April 21, 2019 Share Posted April 21, 2019 Do you remember posting about this subject before? Link to comment
bruces Posted April 21, 2019 Author Share Posted April 21, 2019 Maybe I don’t know,accept my apologies if I did. Link to comment
Lost_in_a_Dark_Maze Posted April 21, 2019 Share Posted April 21, 2019 (edited) No need to apologise, I was just genuinely curious. I had a feeling that you might not remember. I have done the same, posted about something and then looked back at my posts to find I had written about it before and forgotten! Intrusive thoughts in OCD can be about suicide. In those cases, they are the opposite of what we want, as they are with the other harm thoughts that are more commonly discussed. Edited April 21, 2019 by Lost_in_a_Dark_Maze Link to comment
BelAnna Posted April 21, 2019 Share Posted April 21, 2019 Yes sometimes. Sometimes they are just OCD thoughts. Sometimes they are just Depressive thoughts. It's nice to acknowledge that you actually don't want to die though, just for life to change! Link to comment
bruces Posted April 21, 2019 Author Share Posted April 21, 2019 Yes it’s really not fun is it,I question what I’m here for,it’s obviousky not for any kind of fun,pleasure,excitement,fulfilment so I need to know exactly what it is! Link to comment
bruces Posted April 21, 2019 Author Share Posted April 21, 2019 I think the main reason to not wanting to die is so I don’t hurt family is there was a painless method that would erase my existence and families memory of me I would take it but it’s not logical so I can’t Link to comment
Orwell1984 Posted April 22, 2019 Share Posted April 22, 2019 12 hours ago, bruces said: I need to know exactly what it is! No you don’t! Not one person on the planet knows the reason for why they are living or conscious. It is futile to try and answer this question. It’s the same as asking what sort of universe if any is beyond a black hole. 12 hours ago, bruces said: I think the main reason to not wanting to die is so I don’t hurt family is there was a painless method that would erase my existence and families memory of me I would take it but it’s not logical so I can’t I’m sure everyone has had this thought. The thing is, the frequency of this thought is due to the focus you put on it, which is compulsive, a clear indicator of OCD. You don’t enjoy these thoughts. Change your focus and there will be less of them. You have had this obsession for so long now, you don’t see any alternative. You need to force your focus away and with time and effort you’ll recognise it’s all ocd. Link to comment
bruces Posted April 22, 2019 Author Share Posted April 22, 2019 I suppose when I ask what it’s all about,I mean if I can’t experience any happiness in life then what really is there to fight for? I’m quite lucky in where I live etc but I just can’t get any pleasure from life!! Link to comment
Handy Posted April 22, 2019 Share Posted April 22, 2019 Depression is an inability to formulate a future. Thus, you’re unable to formulate one Bruce’s. Could be the season change or lack of sun. Link to comment
bruces Posted April 23, 2019 Author Share Posted April 23, 2019 I doubt it’s rhe weather as I have felt like this for years,suicide feels like such a logical option,even though I’m not going to do it,the saying “suicide is a permanent from to a temporary problem” can almost be deemed as an insult sometimes!! Link to comment
PolarBear Posted April 23, 2019 Share Posted April 23, 2019 21 hours ago, Handy said: Depression is an inability to formulate a future. Thus, you’re unable to formulate one Bruce’s. Could be the season change or lack of sun. Quackery. Link to comment
bruces Posted April 24, 2019 Author Share Posted April 24, 2019 9 hours ago, PolarBear said: Quackery. What is?? Link to comment
Orwell1984 Posted April 24, 2019 Share Posted April 24, 2019 1 hour ago, bruces said: What is?? Handy’s input. Link to comment
bruces Posted April 24, 2019 Author Share Posted April 24, 2019 41 minutes ago, helen10937 said: As usual Pardon? Link to comment
Angst Posted April 24, 2019 Share Posted April 24, 2019 You seem to imply that you only read your own threads. Now we know this is not true. The evidence is there to see. In your posts on other threads. Link to comment
helen10937 Posted April 25, 2019 Share Posted April 25, 2019 19 hours ago, bruces said: Pardon? Handy is a troll Link to comment
jenkijunki Posted April 26, 2019 Share Posted April 26, 2019 Hi. I hope you are feeling a bit better. Everyone I have ever met with OCD has some suicidal thoughts/feelings from time to time. I would recommend working out if it an ocd intrusion, depressive feeling or a true desire not to live. It will help to clarify what your best options are. It sounds like it could be a bit of all three? Is there more support you can find locally? Might be worth reviewing whether you need a bit of therapy, maybe medication and some people you can share how you are feeling with. Connecting with other people can really help. Link to comment
bruces Posted April 26, 2019 Author Share Posted April 26, 2019 Hi thanks for your reply,I’ve started seeing a therapist a few weeks ago,I think in all honesty I think it could be a bit of all 3,things are pretty tricky at the moment but I suppose we all know what that’s like. Link to comment
bruces Posted May 8, 2019 Author Share Posted May 8, 2019 How do we all cope with this? I wish I knew! Link to comment
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