Getting it off my chest.

[Nhornby51743]

Sooooo, I've took a step and decided to discuss my OCD.

I've never talked about it with anyone, so I'm not really sure what to put. I've struggled with it for well over 20 years, and some days it's really tough.

 

My OCD revolves around people who I love, or myself, getting hurt if I don't adhere to the ticks. I guess everyone's are different, mine are touching things, counting in groups of 4, washing my hands, walking through doorways repeatedly.

I am medicated for epilepsy, so this is always at the back of my mind, and it really drags me down some days.

 

I work full-time in an office, although I do my best to hide it, as if people find out I'm worried I won't be respected, as who can take someone seriously who can't even control their own actions.

I spend at least an hour a day with my compulsions, so it would be nice to hear about other peoples lives as well.

 

Thanks for reading my ramblings

 

 

 

[LO_xxx]

Well done for taking the first step!!  

I myself have recently started talking about it (I am not officially diagnosed but am waiting for an assessment). i also spend hours a day worrying to the point my life becomes a bit of a blur because of it. I find that using these forums and reading up about it can be really good, it’s important to know that you’re not alone in this and you will get better. 
 

in my personal opinion (others may be different), I think talking about it really helps as it kind of helps coming to terms with it and allows you to move onto the next step which is recovery! 

 

you’re gonna smash it!

[paradoxer]

Well done, and you're in the right place ... no judgement here. 

Edited October 17, 2019 by paradoxer

[Gemma7]

Hi Nhornby and welcome to the forum

Well done for reaching out after 20 years. Have you looked into getting help for your OCD? The recommended therapy for OCD is cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT). Your gp can refer you for CBT or you can self-refer in England to your local IAPT. 

I've had OCD for 21 years, but in the last 4 years I've made great progress and I'm sure that you can do the same

I highly recommend the self-help book Break free from OCD, it's this that got me started with therapy.

And if you have any questions please ask, there are lots of great people here who are happy to offer advice or their experiences 

 

 

[Nhornby51743]

Thank you, everyone, for the kind words.

I was worried about checking for replies in case I had no responses.

I don't think I'm ready to discuss it with a GP, but hopefully I will get to that stage, I also don't know how it would fit in around my work/daughter schedule.

I will look into that book, and do a bit more reading up on it

[Just me.]

24 minutes ago, Nhornby51743 said:

I don't think I'm ready to discuss it with a GP, but hopefully I will get to that stage, I also don't know how it would fit in around my work/daughter schedule.

Welcome and well done for being brave and taking the first step!

I myself, have made my first post on this forum today, so things are equally new but we are all in this together, right?

I have a busy life schedule so have been referred for online CBT, maybe this can be an option to start with when you're ready?

It's important to remember there's options out there if you want them

[Closed for repairs]

Hang on a minute and I'll bump my thread on the Silvercloud online therapy I'm doing on the NHS, it's a bit of an ongoing if intermittent report on how it works.

[Nhornby51743]

6 hours ago, Just me. said:

Welcome and well done for being brave and taking the first step!

I myself, have made my first post on this forum today, so things are equally new but we are all in this together, right?

I have a busy life schedule so have been referred for online CBT, maybe this can be an option to start with when you're ready?

It's important to remember there's options out there if you want them

Well done to you, as well

I will look into online CBT. It's so hard finding time, and getting time off work, so I think that would be suitable.