californiadreaming Posted January 9, 2020 Share Posted January 9, 2020 Hi all. Recently, California passed a consumer privacy act and I've gone NUTS asking for data from every company I've interacted with to see if I cheated on my husband. I'm mainly looking for any cell phone or location data. I've called a cell phone company 5x to confirm they only give you the last 12 months of information, but it's not good enough for my OCD. What if they're wrong? What if I misheard them? What if they didn't understand me? I'm going nuts and I'm so depressed. I've lost about 5 lbs in one week and I can't even look my new husband in the eye just in case there is something in these reports. I'm so scared I'm going to get these data reports and see location information that pins me at the ex's house and have to confess. I'm going back to therapy, but I just can't stop. I'm so upset. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 9, 2020 Share Posted January 9, 2020 And yet, you have to stop. I know the urge to do these meaningless compulsions is strong, but you've got to know that they don't do any good. You've done all this work lately. Has your situation improved? Are you any closer to an answer? No. You are right where you were before you started this latest round of compulsions, though likely feeling worse. Keep it up and you'll just sink further down the rabbit hole of misery. Link to comment
californiadreaming Posted January 9, 2020 Author Share Posted January 9, 2020 Are they meaningless if there's actually data in there, though? I did request data from one entity and found some old data in there that I thought I deleted which sent me down a spiral, unfortunately. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 9, 2020 Share Posted January 9, 2020 You've been on this for years. Are you any further ahead? No! Think about it! This will go on for years more, if you let it. Right now you are letting OCD have its way. Link to comment
californiadreaming Posted January 9, 2020 Author Share Posted January 9, 2020 I know. I hear ya. My husband just tells me to delete them because it's useless, but I just want to be sure. I know it can get truly ridiculous because there's TONS of data points out there. I'll always find a new one if I keep on letting this go. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 9, 2020 Share Posted January 9, 2020 "I just want to be sure." Listen to me. No matter how much data you collect and analyze, you will NEVER be sure. Think about that. OCD will not let you have certainty. Searching for it is a trap. Link to comment
californiadreaming Posted January 9, 2020 Author Share Posted January 9, 2020 OK, let's say I *do* actually find something. Then what do I do? Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 10, 2020 Share Posted January 10, 2020 Let me flip that around. What if you spend 20 years searching and still find nothing? Because you're about 10% there already. Link to comment
californiadreaming Posted January 10, 2020 Author Share Posted January 10, 2020 That is also a possibility. I just can't shake the fear of actually finding something. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 10, 2020 Share Posted January 10, 2020 The fear will dissipate the longer you don't do compulsions. Link to comment
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