Sam311 Posted January 17, 2020 Share Posted January 17, 2020 Hi, I’m new to this forum, nice to meet you all I was wondering if anyone had any insight as I’m quite baffled myself. I have had Ocd majority of my life but it was only diagnosed after having my children as I suffered intrusive harm thoughts and had CBT which helped me too lose the intrusive thoughts. I however obsess about my health ( everything’s the big C or a sinister disease) and I will google until the cows come home and my doctor is sick of the sight of me. For a while now though I have been noticing some strange behaviours and I’m unsure as to why I’m getting them. I smoke and I want to quit, but I don’t seem to be able to because I have this constant pattern of counting how many cigarettes I have a day or week, I also do this with glasses of wine and junk food. Each time I try to diet, cut down or abstain with wine or stop smoking I do it for a day and then I’m back to it again.. it’s always the same days, the same amounts etc. So I always drink or smoke 3 days a week same amounts etc or I freak... It’s mentally destroying me as I am fully aware it’s all harmful to my psychical health and I don’t know why I can’t just break these habits like other people do. I have read so many self help books, tried Nrt and been to the dr who just tells me the standard cut down or quit but I cannot seem to break the cycle. It’s like I’m play Russian roulette with my health and I don’t know why because I am the most worried person when it comes to health.. My friends and family are so fed up of hearing my goals because to them I always fail.. is this anything to do with my ocd? Link to comment
Ashley Posted January 17, 2020 Share Posted January 17, 2020 1 hour ago, Sam311 said: is this anything to do with my ocd? Hello Sam, Welcome to the forums In answer to your question, I think the counting of the cigarettes and wine could well be part of the OCD (I guess it depends if it's anxiety driven counting), and of course that could have a knock on effect of hindering your attempts to quit. In terms of the actual habit change/quitting, that may not be because of OCD that you struggle, breaking habits/addictions to smoking etc is hard (even without OCD). I am sure others who have been through similar will offer input over the next 24 hours though. With best wishes, Ashley Link to comment
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