Harm OCD

[intothewild]

Hey guys

Slowly getting better from the Philosophical OCD, but a new theme popped up recently. 

It's about harming my family, and it's quite scary. 

I have thought like "if I don't kill my brother, I'm gonna die". I don't wanna do any of that! 

I don't wanna harm anyone, I'd rather die than kill someone, actually. 

It's so irrational, and yet I still believe everything my OCD tells me. 

[PolarBear]

Time to stop believing it. This is no different than sny other type of OCD. It's just intrusive thoughts. The problem is when you take the thoughts seriously. Which you don't have to do.

[intothewild]

Yeah, sometimes I'm afraid that I'm actually becoming delusional. 

[Guest dimmerswitch]

It’s OCD. Ego-dystonic thoughts. OCD is the biggest bully you’ll ever meet. It knows how to get you to react. 
Accept the thoughts, and laugh at them. 

[BM94]

Yeah absolutely. When I first started struggling with intrusive thoughts I felt like I was in a different dimension - like there was a smokescreen over my eyes. Did I do it? Didnt I do it? Did i do it in my subconscious parallel mind? It was the purest hell which left me couch-bound for days!

You may feel like you're becoming delusional or detached from reality, but you can absolutely make it through that and see it all for what it is - OCD.