May have turned a corner

[BigDave]

Hey ladies and gents,

So today has been a really bad day. I have changed my clothes numerous times and had a shower in an attempt to keep clean but I feel like, despite all my efforts, that I am still not clean. To give you an idea of how bad it is, Dad put a slipper that has been sat in urine in a basket full of clean clothes and I have to wear them later. Horrendous. But anyway, after having a shower and touching soiled clothing and everything, I eventually got to my room feeling far from clean. But I actually feel like I'm past caring. I am just emotionally drained, tired and upset and I think to myself, well, maybe I just have to give in that the world is going to conspire against me to have really unclean stuff and I have to deal with it. Because my Mum isn't going to wash all the clothes again because of a dirty slipper. She washed some but how do I know that she got everything? Answer is, I don't. So I live in fear? what do I do? God knows. I am just so tired and drained and this whole COVID thing and being trapped in an enclosed environment with people who don't have the same "standards" as I do is very very draining and difficult.

 

I guess I am just going to have to live with it now. SO I guess that is turning the corner.

[Cub]

Hi Dave

It's good that you feel some form of acceptance but do be kind to yourself. These times of stress are hard and getting a lot of OCD going (including mine!) I know it's hard right now, but just go easy on yourself. Acceptance is a very good thing; just go step by step by step.