Really struggling today. x

[Saz]

Hi everyone and hope you are ok. 

I'm really struggling today. I feel quite sick and very anxious regarding my false memory (which I hate calling it that incase its not). Everything seems so real today, more so than ever. Feel gutted and so worried x

 

[malina]

Hey Saz,

I'm sorry that you're having such a bad day, is there anything you can do to distract yourself? Maybe go for a walk or watch a nice film?

[Chris2020]

I feel your pain. Im in a similar position but my horrible "thought" was created from something kind of related there and then. Its not something that happened a while ago and now I'm only thinking about it. 

For me the thought came and I believed it. I tried to ignore it and lable it as not real but the feelings it holds on me is incredible. I tell myself this is just a thought but as 11 months has passed it makes me doubt where it was a thought or actually real. That's the scary bit. 

I totally understand where your coming from though as I believe the doubt you put into your thinking leads you down that path. 

Pm if you want to talk. 

Chris 

[Binxy]

Hi Saz,

I guess these things don't really go away- we just get batter at handling them. That's certainly the case for me. I'm much faster at recognising when I'm starting to disappear down the rabbit hole and I snap myself back to something positive. Remember, this is nothing new- occasionally it will take hold. Watch for the rumination and "trying to remember properly" compulsions- they won't get you anywhere except stuck for longer.

Hang in there,

Binx 

[hazydaze]

On 06/07/2020 at 03:05, Saz said:

Hi everyone and hope you are ok. 

I'm really struggling today. I feel quite sick and very anxious regarding my false memory (which I hate calling it that incase its not). Everything seems so real today, more so than ever. Feel gutted and so worried x

 

I hope you're feeling better hun xoxo
remember to be kind to yourself, lots of patience. keep practicing letting the thoughts be

best wishes my friend!

Edited July 10, 2020 by hazydaze