Genuinely just feel like im going insane.

[humbleno1]

So tired of this disorder, gaps in my memory, and worrying ive somehow done horrible things, im so tired and drained, I feel like im going insane, struggling with whats real, tired of compulsions, getting very little support and emotionally stressed everyday, even though ive told people at breaking point.

[hazydaze]

Hey!

I'm so sorry for what you are experiencing; I've been there. I get it. 
Are you currently seeing a professional, or are you on any medication? Do you have any self-help books? Basically, besides the forum (which is a good one!) what are the tools that you currently are using to battle your OCD?