I don’t know what’s come over me but I don’t like it and don’t feel in control

[Chels]

I’m not sure if it’s due to the festive period coming upon us or stress due to studies/work commitments but I don’t feel in control of myself or my mind at the moment. I am scared. My heart is racing and I don’t feel ‘with it’ i constantly feel like crying and emotional. I can’t control it anymore. I’m hoping it’s just a bad week, I feel physically sick and worried. 
 

iv always suffered with sexual intrusive thoughts, mostly when I’m in a relationship and mostly during sex. Mostly when I’m about to orgasm, I feel sick at the thought it’s usually when I’m trying to concentrate on it. But now I can’t rationalise whether I am putting the thoughts there on purpose or not. My heads just muddled with it all. I don’t want to lose my partner but I know the outcome will be that someone please help me

[PolarBear]

Stop trying to rationalize your thoughts. There's your compulsion.

[Chels]

9 hours ago, PolarBear said:

Stop trying to rationalize your thoughts. There's your compulsion.

I will try, but how do I stop the guilty awful feeling that causes me to compiles/confess? @PolarBear

[PolarBear]

You stop the compulsions. Then you won't fixate on it. Without being top of mind, there's no reason to feel guilty.

[Chels]

@PolarBear by compulsions you mean overthinking? 

[PolarBear]

Well, you need to figure out what your compulsions are. What do you do when the thoughts strike?