Mike68 Posted January 11, 2021 Share Posted January 11, 2021 Since being struck down by OCD, I seem to have lost my sense of self. Things that used to matter to me seem irrelevant and I don't feel the values that I once held. I find this really difficult to live with. Does anyone else experience this? Link to comment
FranticS Posted January 11, 2021 Share Posted January 11, 2021 Hi Mike, I definitely know where you're coming from - I dont know what values you feel you're losing, but I've been experiencing something quite similar over the last few months. Do you feel like you're truly losing your values, or is it that the thoughts you're having are making you question yourself? From reading here, that seems to be a very common feeling in ocd, but frightening, nonetheless... Link to comment
Mike68 Posted January 11, 2021 Author Share Posted January 11, 2021 Hi FranticS, I think that I still have values but I don't feel them like I used to. Link to comment
eualice Posted January 11, 2021 Share Posted January 11, 2021 Yes, I feel the same. It seems that I no longer know who I am and do not believe in values. It's strange because I always knew, until a while ago, who I was and what my values were with a certainty of the wall. Link to comment
FranticS Posted January 11, 2021 Share Posted January 11, 2021 What kind of values are we talking about, though? I guess I'm intrigued as to how much your experience matches up....? Link to comment
Mike68 Posted January 11, 2021 Author Share Posted January 11, 2021 The things I miss are feelings of compassion and empathy Link to comment
FranticS Posted January 11, 2021 Share Posted January 11, 2021 Exactly what I'm experiencing, too, Mike. It's very frightening - I used to be so assured of my own values - they were unshakeable and "obvious" to the point that I couldn't conceive of thinking any differently, but since the OCD has kicked back in, I feel like I've become very selfish and closed off to other people. I don't know if that's unusual or not - I have seen people say similar things here, but it's hard to shake off the conviction that I'm genuinely going completely mad... Link to comment
FranticS Posted January 11, 2021 Share Posted January 11, 2021 On the subject of "not feeling what we think we should be"... I found the following this evening... https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/ocd-checking-emotions Very interesting. Is it really possible that checking one's emotions like this really does block the natural flow of our feelings? Link to comment
Mike68 Posted January 12, 2021 Author Share Posted January 12, 2021 I agree with much of what is said in the article. I spend a lot of time thinking of loved ones and trying to conjure up the 'right' feelings but just end up feeling anxious. Link to comment
FranticS Posted January 12, 2021 Share Posted January 12, 2021 Right, and I don't think covid/lockdown really helps either, as we now have oodles of time indoors to get bored and start ruminating/testing ourselves... Link to comment
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