eualice Posted February 17, 2021 Share Posted February 17, 2021 I have been so afraid, so much guilt for not getting better. The feeling is that I am deceiving myself in not accepting that I am a monster. Where is the line in having toc and those damn viral responses and really being a monster? What if I'm a monster and I'm just in denial? Fooling myself? I can deal with thoughts, but when it comes with viral responses I just wish I could get away from myself. If I were sure it is not toc I would prefer to take my life. But I would also be afraid to hurt the people I know love me. But rather to die than to be trash in the world. I just wanted to have peace, to be sure, to have my life back. Link to comment
MarieJo Posted February 17, 2021 Share Posted February 17, 2021 It is OCD and you are not a monster. Sensations are part of ocd as much as thoughts are. Your compulsions are keeping your ocd alive and feeding it. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted February 18, 2021 Share Posted February 18, 2021 Help an old guy out... toc? Viral responses? Link to comment
eualice Posted February 18, 2021 Author Share Posted February 18, 2021 10 hours ago, PolarBear said: Help an old guy out... toc? Viral responses? Sorry, Polar. My English translation went wrong. Yes, it is ocd and the groinal response. Pocd. It's hell on earth for me. I hate it so much. God only knows how. Link to comment
eualice Posted February 18, 2021 Author Share Posted February 18, 2021 19 hours ago, MarieJo said: É TOC e você não é um monstro. As sensações fazem parte do ocd tanto quanto os pensamentos. Suas compulsões estão mantendo seu ocd vivo e alimentando-o. I'm trying to avoid giving in to compulsions as much as possible. But it is so hard. It never seems to improve. Link to comment
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