The last Jedi Posted April 8, 2021 Share Posted April 8, 2021 (edited) Basically, I obsess over my thinking, so I am thinking about my thinking all the time and watching and reading my thoughts. It is like I have an extra pair of eyes inside my head watching everything. It never ends and is exhausting. Even nice thoughts drive me mad as I am forever living inside my own head, my brain never stops talking to me. I just want peace. I am medicated. It is like a hyper form of Pure OCD, like I am checking my compulsions to check my compulsions, OCD about OCD........ I know that my thoughts are my own thou but I am HYPER aware of my own inner voice. Edited April 8, 2021 by Caramoole Trigger Warning removed Link to comment
humbleno1 Posted April 8, 2021 Share Posted April 8, 2021 39 minutes ago, The last Jedi said: Basically, I obsess over my thinking, so I am thinking about my thinking all the time and watching and reading my thoughts. It is like I have an extra pair of eyes inside my head watching everything. It never ends and is exhausting. Even nice thoughts drive me mad as I am forever living inside my own head, my brain never stops talking to me. I just want peace. I am medicated. It is like a hyper form of Pure OCD, like I am checking my compulsions to check my compulsions, OCD about OCD........ I know that my thoughts are my own thou but I am HYPER aware of my own inner voice. this isnt that rare, I get it too, I think at some point ocd gets more sophisticated, the mechanism is still the same though. Link to comment
BelAnna Posted April 8, 2021 Share Posted April 8, 2021 Can you try distraction techniques? If your brain is very busy/occupied with something else then do you get some respite from this? Link to comment
Angst Posted April 9, 2021 Share Posted April 9, 2021 (edited) There is an expression taking yourself out of yourself or sayings akin to this. You are focusing your attention on your own mental processes. So if you play games with an opponent such as chess your attention will switch to your opponent’s intentions. If you play team games such as football your attention will focus on the moments and intentions of your team members and your opponents intentions and the play of the ball. Some computer games could have the same effect. If you do a craft such as bricklaying or laying a stone wall your attention and physical exertion will be directed to something external to you. Walking in the hills will focus attention on the steps you take, the route and map reading as well as having physical exertion. Meeting people and having conversations involves an interaction with others and responding to the utterances of another. So do more things which force you to interact with your environment and others. So you dwell less intently on your own subjectivity, your own consciousness. Edited April 9, 2021 by Angst Link to comment
The last Jedi Posted April 9, 2021 Author Share Posted April 9, 2021 4 hours ago, Angst said: There is an expression taking yourself out of yourself or sayings akin to this. You are focusing your attention on your own mental processes. So if you play games with an opponent such as chess your attention will switch to your opponent’s intentions. If you play team games such as football your attention will focus on the moments and intentions of your team members and your opponents intentions and the play of the ball. Some computer games could have the same effect. If you do a craft such as bricklaying or laying a stone wall your attention and physical exertion will be directed to something external to you. Walking in the hills will focus attention on the steps you take, the route and map reading as well as having physical exertion. Meeting people and having conversations involves an interaction with others and responding to the utterances of another. So do more things which force you to interact with your environment and others. So you dwell less intently on your own subjectivity, your own consciousness. I am going to try and read tonight, my mind doesn't shut up..... : ( Many thanks for the reply Link to comment
The last Jedi Posted April 10, 2021 Author Share Posted April 10, 2021 6 hours ago, Angst said: How did it go? Thinks for asking, I'm calm, but its on going....., like how can I see images inside my head when I haven't got any eyes in there,etc,etc...... Link to comment
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