Having a hard time with one thing

[Ryukil]

I say one thing but of course it's indicative of a larger problem.

I've started this game over multiple times today. It gets "contaminated" by various thoughts so I start it over to de-contaminated it. 

Inevitably it gets contaminated by another thought, but that thought may be easier to deal with than the previous one.

I think that's a flaw in my logic though - I'll "de-contaminate" something saying this thought is too bad, I'll re-contaminate with a less difficult one.

But that's...I don't know. Flawed logic I think. There shouldn't really be any excuse to give into compulsions.

Basically, I just need to start the game, and keep it no matter what it's contaminated with.

What usually happens is I'll commit to that, but then restart several times until I get frustrated and give up.

Which happened like an hour ago.

So yeah. Need to just *@!$ing do it.

 

[PolarBear]

What you need to do is realize the contamination does not exist.

Edited April 28, 2021 by PolarBear

[Ryukil]

Well, I have the saved game now.

My fear is that God will punish me, or that I'll start insulting God in my head.

Fudge it though, this is like the 5th or 6th attempt today.