Ashley Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 I have struggled the last couple of weeks with OCD and I didn't want to talk or write it down. I ended with a mish mash of words that ended up with this... a sort of poem (I say sort of, I wouldn't know poetry if it smacked me in the face) You see, This is OCD Lungs gasping for breath, Bleach fumes consume Neck cranes at window, Seeking one desperate breath of air You see That is OCD Dettol sprayed furiously Not because cleaning is enjoyed Because thoughts bombard You see That is OCD Hand and arms getting redder But I’m determined to get better Hands getting sore OCD feels such a necessary bore You see That is OCD Sexual body fluids fright But don’t excite Sexual interaction is fun for all but a fleeting moment You see That is OCD Thoughts of disgust and shame bombard, I must, I must, I must or I am a bad person Scream the thoughts You see That is OCD Going to bed at night creates fears In case my body unconsciously erupts creating fears You see That is OCD It consumes, it dictates My life is no longer my own You see That is OCD Unique to me are my fears Sometimes close to tears Surviving, fighting, dying inside You see That is OCD Unwanted thoughts cascade Just like other manifestations of OCD Compelled to conduct compulsions Just like other manifestations of OCD You see That is OCD And that is why I must, I WILL recover My life will be my own Link to comment
Lollipop Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 Great piece of writing @Ashley Thank you, once again, for your openness. Keep heading in the right direction! Link to comment
snowbear Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 Wow. Powerful poetry. And hopeful too. I hope you'll share it with our members in the next magazine. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 Very real, Ashley. Thank you. Link to comment
Ashley Posted September 5, 2021 Author Share Posted September 5, 2021 Thank you for your nice comments all On 03/09/2021 at 16:00, Lollipop said: Thank you, once again, for your openness. To be honest Lollipop, it's the fact I am struggling to be completely open about this that sort of led to me jotting a few lines that ended up like this. If only I could open up to a therapist On 03/09/2021 at 16:46, snowbear said: Wow. Powerful poetry. And hopeful too. I hope you'll share it with our members in the next magazine. Thanks Snowbear. Not sure it's positive enough for the magazine. I might use it if we need to fill space for the winter magazine but I am not sure it's good enough. We already have four submitted for the September magazine that are far better than mine I did wonder if maybe there is a way to get some use out of it for OCD Awareness Week somehow... as although it's my story it ended up being more about showing what OCD can be like. Link to comment
L.M. Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 Wonderful and powerful Ashley. Thank you for sharing that. Gave me shivers reading it as I could relate so well. May we all journey on together to good recovery. Link to comment
Lollipop Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 8 hours ago, Ashley said: Thank you for your nice comments all To be honest Lollipop, it's the fact I am struggling to be completely open about this that sort of led to me jotting a few lines that ended up like this. If only I could open up to a therapist Thanks Snowbear. Not sure it's positive enough for the magazine. I might use it if we need to fill space for the winter magazine but I am not sure it's good enough. Positive or not Ashley it's real and true and that's what sufferers need to hear. Plus by keeping talking about it's showing others that if their recovery journey doesn't go from a to b in a straight line that's okay too. I hope you can work with a therapist that you're comfortable with soon to address this. Link to comment
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