Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Share Posted January 27, 2022 Hello every1. Ive been suffring for long time now. I had intrusive thoughts of harm in past and it made me feel like im a evil. but recently ive been even worst. im not sure if i even have ocd. months ago, i came across a funny video but it cut across to gay people kissing and it made me feel weird, thats when this started. i got over that and put it behind me (or so i thought) i was joking with friend a few months ago and he called me a gay. i laughed but when i left the bar to go went home i thought was i a gay? since then ive been 'ruminating' about being a gay. all my life iv never been lookings at men but now i worry. i started testing myself by watching gay porn to see if i liked it. my heart rate would go up and i would get erections. i see other people on here focus on getting erections but im not bothered about that, i know erections mean nothing but when i tested myself i was so anxious but it felt like i liked it sometimes. is ocd able to do this? can ocd make you feel like you like it sometimes? i cantt stop worrying about this, i get so worrie. i dont want to be a gay, but it felt like i enjoyed video. to any gay please do not be offend i am not a homophobic, i just don want to be gay i ve been straight but ever since this happen it drive me mad can ocd make you feel like you like a video???? im not talking about erection Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 sometimes i get thoughts and i get groinal response to them and sometimes i test myself by thinking about the thoughts myself and it feels like i lik ethem sometimes, im shaking please does this mean im a gay? Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 ive been worrying about this for months now, im so upset Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 Can some1 please help me? I'm cant stop shaking. Can OCD make you feel like you like it?(not talking about groinal responses) Link to comment
Ray Posted January 27, 2022 Share Posted January 27, 2022 3 minutes ago, Lightning said: Can some1 please help me? I'm cant stop shaking. Can OCD make you feel like you like it?(not talking about groinal responses) OCD can fool the sufferer into believing all kinds of things. I’ve been in a world of weirdness, terror and shock for much of the last quarter century. Sexuality themed OCD is pretty common and also treatable. Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 Hello ray thank you very much for response its not just believing though, when i tested by watching it felt like i liked it. then my heart rate when mad and iv been worrying ever since. can ocd actually do that? i have hard time believing it actulaly can make you feel. Link to comment
Ray Posted January 27, 2022 Share Posted January 27, 2022 6 minutes ago, Lightning said: Hello ray thank you very much for response its not just believing though, when i tested by watching it felt like i liked it. then my heart rate when mad and iv been worrying ever since. can ocd actually do that? i have hard time believing it actulaly can make you feel. In my experience the mental anguish and physical anxiety that comes with OCD can be horrible. Have you ever heard OCD called “the doubting disease”? It sure is! Have you spoken to a doctor? Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 i have heard it called that and no i haven't spoken to a doctor Link to comment
Ray Posted January 27, 2022 Share Posted January 27, 2022 5 minutes ago, Lightning said: i have heard it called that and no i haven't spoken to a doctor Well maybe put some thought into talking to a doctor. OCD has many themes and is treatable. Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 (edited) i dont want to go to a doctor because it is embarasing. i havent been entirely honest with my post because im embarsed, its not being gay i worry about but something else. its not not anything bad but something i do not like Edited January 27, 2022 by Lightning Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 27, 2022 Author Share Posted January 27, 2022 @PolarBear sorry for tagging, please can you help you seem you have lot of experience with ocd. i really have a problem with fetish i dont like, but when i test myself with videos I feel weird and i get high anxiety and high ehart rate. im so upset i want it to stop. can ocd make you feel like you like things? Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 28, 2022 Share Posted January 28, 2022 You already received an answer to your question. Now you're back asking again. This can become a compulsion, asking for reassurance. For the second time, yes it can. What is more important is that you are testing yourself. That is a compulsion and it needs to stop. Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 28, 2022 Author Share Posted January 28, 2022 (edited) yes, i just wanted to hear another persons opinion. i wanted to ask you because you seem knowledgable on ocd. no offend to Ray, i apprciate the help. i am just very uneasy at the moment. i do not feel good. i apprciate the help Edited January 28, 2022 by Lightning Link to comment
Caramoole Posted January 28, 2022 Share Posted January 28, 2022 Straight people can be turned on by gay porn....or vice versa. People can be turned on by beastialty. People can be turned on by thoughts of rape or dominance or almost anything but would never enjoy it in reality. It becomes a problem when we become afraid of the thoughts and engage in compulsions as a means to control the fears. Link to comment
Ray Posted January 28, 2022 Share Posted January 28, 2022 7 hours ago, PolarBear said: You already received an answer to your question. Now you're back asking again. This can become a compulsion, asking for reassurance. For the second time, yes it can. What is more important is that you are testing yourself. That is a compulsion and it needs to stop. Do you not think this response is lacking sensitivity? This person is bewildered and frightened by their thoughts - do you remember feeling that way? Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 28, 2022 Share Posted January 28, 2022 22 hours ago, Lightning said: yes, i just wanted to hear another persons opinion. i wanted to ask you because you seem knowledgable on ocd. no offend to Ray, i apprciate the help. i am just very uneasy at the moment. i do not feel good. i apprciate the help Normal feelings that go with OCD. Can feel like you are not in control. The good news is that you can gain control back. Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 29, 2022 Author Share Posted January 29, 2022 what you mean polarbear? i dont understand. do you mean the feelings i get watching video are normal with ocd? Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 29, 2022 Author Share Posted January 29, 2022 i realize it look like i was looking for reassurance but no i actually dont understand polarbear's comment. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted January 29, 2022 Share Posted January 29, 2022 You said you are uneasy and that you don't feel good. Those are normal feelings to have when you have OCD. Link to comment
Lightning Posted January 29, 2022 Author Share Posted January 29, 2022 i understand now thank you @PolarBear Link to comment
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