In recovery

[KaTiee]

So I’m in recovery stage

I have time to fill during the day between school runs. 
I used to use my time SHOPPING spending money! Money I didn’t have. 
I’d buy lots for my children online then spend time sending stuff back. 
this had benefits as it used up space in my brain. I felt happy purchasing. I had purpose to my days.  
It was my comfort - avoidance from dealing with my problems. 
Anyway I got myself in debt which caused further  problems. 

Anyway I’ve stopped doing this now and since before Christmas have been trying to cope with this empty space in my life. 
I was wondering if anyone had a similar story. 
or any ideas how to fill this space in my head so the OCD hasn’t room to grow. 
 

My shopping wasn’t an addiction just something I felt safe doing. 
I need something similar that doesn’t involve money. Lol. 
maybe a personal shopper (but from home) lol. 

[Ma29]

Hmm - watching a TV show in which people get makeovers /transformations ?! I quite enjoy those and there is a segment dedicated to clothing. I like queer eye and I’m sure there are a few others. 

[KaTiee]

Ooo ok that’s a good one. 
I generally follow dramas but I do feel these trigger for me sometimes. 
I like the one where they transform their house for them and the entire street help too. 
 

I generally get on better when around other people. It stops my OCD from escalating. It at least gives me that time and breathing space. 
however at the moment i feel I’m going to cause contamination to others or it can work the other way round. So it’s swing and roundabouts. 
 

My friend and I are going to try golf. She plays occasionally and I’ve never tried it so might be a new thing I enjoy.