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Hi everyone, I hope you are well.

I have OCD and have been having therapy for the last year and a half which has been a huge help, but seem to have relapsed after a night having a few drinks.

It was a nice evening until my friend had too much and he got asked to leave the pub. I apologised to everyone in there, and then tried to walk him home. He ended up falling asleep on a wall, and would not move. I was already annoyed about his behaviour, and just kept trying to get him to stand up and walk home. I ended up getting quite upset on the phone to my wife as I had no way to get him home, and couldn't just leave him there. She suggested an ambulance, so I called them and they came out. They were really lovely, and I was extremely apologetic about the situation and they ended up taking him to hospital. Since then I have been ruminating about the evening, and whether there are bits I can't remember, false memories etc, to the point where it's all I am thinking about. I am a very cautious drinker, usually having only a couple because of my OCD, and have worked really hard to get here, and now I feel like the cycle is starting again. I have started taking mirtazapine again in the hope that it will help, as well as looking over my OCD relapse plan that I worked on with my therapist.

Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to see if anyone could relate. Thank you.

 

 

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Hi Df84,

I think a lot of people on here will relate to this.

You went out on a night out that sounded quite challenging with your friend being drunk. You then felt doubt about what happened that evening, which you then exacerbated by starting to think back and worry. One of the specialists always says 'you can't remember something that never happened' and it sounds like that's where you are at the moment. 

OCD wants certainty, but you're not going to be able to get it. Try your best to let the doubt be there, get on with your day and persist with that over time. I'm sure you know all this after having such helpful therapy, you will get there :)

Gemma

 

 

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1 hour ago, Gemma@OCDUK said:

Hi Df84,

I think a lot of people on here will relate to this.

You went out on a night out that sounded quite challenging with your friend being drunk. You then felt doubt about what happened that evening, which you then exacerbated by starting to think back and worry. One of the specialists always says 'you can't remember something that never happened' and it sounds like that's where you are at the moment. 

OCD wants certainty, but you're not going to be able to get it. Try your best to let the doubt be there, get on with your day and persist with that over time. I'm sure you know all this after having such helpful therapy, you will get there :)

Gemma

 

 

Thanks for the reply Gemma.

Unfortunately, I have gone down the rabbit hole of what if this, what if that, and am now in a state of constant rumination and fear. I think because my friend was really drunk, I am convincing myself that I was as bad, but getting upset about whether I should leave him or not, being able to call the ambulance, speak to my wife about the situation, and then talk to the ambulance crew (they also kindly have me a lift home),makes me think that if anything, I was being pretty responsible. However, the fear is there.

Thanks again

 

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