Sexual ocd matching my thoughts...with porn.

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OCD matching thoughts with porn.

Hi I have sexual ocd for long time ..now its get out of hand..please help me.

So like other day. I was watching porn videos and the girle in video wore balck bra ..so when I watching OCD remind me that your mother has also wearing balck bra...and that bra of my mother I seen it. when i was kid and ocd remid it to me after mostly 15 years ..and i never seen after that my mother priavte colthes. cause we are living in muslim society so our ladies kept secret these types of things...so I was very ashmed  and I changed the video.after that I feel too much guilty.

And one other time. I seen one girle in porn videos she has small breast..I feel very ahsmed and guilty to typing these things.but anyway ocd remind me that your sister had also small (...).and I swear to GOD i never look my sister private parts.but phirepal vision capture these things. and reminde me during watching porn ..so I feel very  guilty. I want to stop watching porn and mast...

So anyone can relate to this..can OCD matching thoughts with other things..please help.

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23 minutes ago, accomplished 133 said:

OCD matching thoughts with porn.

Hi I have sexual ocd for long time ..now its get out of hand..please help me.

So like other day. I was watching porn videos and the girle in video wore balck bra ..so when I watching OCD remind me that your mother has also wearing balck bra...and that bra of my mother I seen it. when i was kid and ocd remid it to me after mostly 15 years ..and i never seen after that my mother priavte colthes. cause we are living in muslim society so our ladies kept secret these types of things...so I was very ashmed  and I changed the video.after that I feel too much guilty.

And one other time. I seen one girle in porn videos she has small breast..I feel very ahsmed and guilty to typing these things.but anyway ocd remind me that your sister had also small (...).and I swear to GOD i never look my sister private parts.but phirepal vision capture these things. and reminde me during watching porn ..so I feel very  guilty. I want to stop watching porn and mast...

So anyone can relate to this..can OCD matching thoughts with other things..please help.

This isn't different to the other stuff you are dealing with. It's the same stuff @accomplished 133

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51 minutes ago, DRS1 said:

This isn't different to the other stuff you are dealing with. It's the same stuff @accomplished 133

Thank u so much...u are are very brave..and u must be beautiful from inside and outside..

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Just now, accomplished 133 said:

Thank u so much...u are are very brave..and u must be beautiful from inside and outside..

I wouldn't say that, you are just dealing with OCD, like the rest of us do/have done.

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1 hour ago, accomplished 133 said:

OCD matching thoughts with porn.

Hi I have sexual ocd for long time ..now its get out of hand..please help me.

So like other day. I was watching porn videos and the girle in video wore balck bra ..so when I watching OCD remind me that your mother has also wearing balck bra...and that bra of my mother I seen it. when i was kid and ocd remid it to me after mostly 15 years ..and i never seen after that my mother priavte colthes. cause we are living in muslim society so our ladies kept secret these types of things...so I was very ashmed  and I changed the video.after that I feel too much guilty.

And one other time. I seen one girle in porn videos she has small breast..I feel very ahsmed and guilty to typing these things.but anyway ocd remind me that your sister had also small (...).and I swear to GOD i never look my sister private parts.but phirepal vision capture these things. and reminde me during watching porn ..so I feel very  guilty. I want to stop watching porn and mast...

So anyone can relate to this..can OCD matching thoughts with other things..please help.

I feel it's worth adding a bit more information here to sort of clarify how this works.

 

OCD is targeting anything it knows can get you to do compulsions. It can be anything but for you at the minute it's the triggers of underwear or body parts that are normally hidden like breasts. 

 

This is how OCD works though. It doesn't care that you don't want to connect those things together, it just wants you to keep doing compulsions and listening to it because of course OCD must be right. However it's not right.

 

Taking an ERP approach to this is allowing yourself to have that thought in your head and continue whatever you were doing despite it. It's the failed logic of OCD to start making the fact like in your other post that knowing or guessing that someone you know has had sex is wrong to have somehow thought about it or known it. It's OCDs failed logic to suddenly make underwear (that most people wear, even family members) something that is now a massive problem.

 

Obviously take your cultural background into account with OCD too but also I would look at what your values are and what are your beliefs around sex (not where you live and not your families). You should live according to your values whatever they are.

 

So to the above aspects of what you have mentioned, if you enjoy doing that and it's not becoming compulsive in itself, then if you value it there's no reason for you to suddenly stop doing those things because OCD has gave that connection during those activities.

 

Watch out for the small changes in content too. Next time instead of underwear it may be bare feet, hands, lips, ears, hair, literally whatever works to get you to do compulsions. Knowing that this is how OCD is going to work can help you understand the mechanisms of how it works and makes it easier to bypass the content aspect that locks you into compulsions.

 

Hopefully once you get to see the psychiatrist they will be able to help and once you get a therapist you can do ERP properly at your own pace.

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Thanks ....

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Thanks ....previous year i met my phyicatrist..and once I Enter his room.i told him what I learned about ocd ..like ocd sub types names..triggers.contimination thoughts.phirepal vision.other more things.and I told him I have many books about ocd ..and he got angry, cause he  told me I can't diagnose u now. because u are telling  me the things which u reads online .. ..this time is will meet him face to face ..I will tell him the whole story..

 

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32 minutes ago, accomplished 133 said:

Thanks ....previous year i met my phyicatrist..and once I Enter his room.i told him what I learned about ocd ..like ocd sub types names..triggers.contimination thoughts.phirepal vision.other more things.and I told him I have many books about ocd ..and he got angry, cause he  told me I can't diagnose u now. because u are telling  me the things which u reads online .. ..this time is will meet him face to face ..I will tell him the whole story..

 

What the previous psychiatrist said was flat out stupid. It is his responsibility as a medical professional to help you not refuse to diagnose you just because you researched what your symptoms were and found information about OCD. Although, I'm not surprised as this happened to me prior to seeing an actual psychologist and psychiatrist where the mental health nurse said a similar thing but told me I had health anxiety even though my intrusive thoughts and images were purely sexual and harm based and I was doing compulsions like compulsive rumination. This should not be happening with a qualified psychiatrist. Ever.

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Yes ..this time I will Try to tell him all the story..and thanks that u share your story ..