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lonely mum

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  1. I had some group CBT and there was a girl in similar circumstance as yourself re eating. The CBT did help her. It was hard but she ate things she wouldnt have otherwise. You need similar help and I wish you all the best.
  2. Thanks for your reply dksea. Daisy- nice to hear from you again :original: and thank you for your reply. Your reassurance does help me as I dont really have anyone else to talk to so for me it is better to speak about it instead of bottling things up. I hate that even car journeys become a nightmare and if I didnt have my child I dont think i would even set my foot out of the house. How are you keeping? Would love to hear from you x
  3. First of all congratulations on your pregnancy. I have read of many wonderful mums whose OCD is triggered by the one thing they love the most ie pregnancy/their children. It soounds like same is happening to you and in particular because of a previous miscarriage, which can make mums more protective of future pregnancies/babies and thus OCD fears start to manifest. Speak to a healt professional so they can guide you as left untreated with a young baby will only get difficult and I dont mean just in terms of OCD but PPD. Im sorry about the intrusive thoughts but it is OCD thats talking.
  4. Nice to hear good news of someone. Best of luck
  5. I cant live with uncertainty. Im a control freak..lol but I dont want contamination of other peoples urine in my home. I know im asking for reassurance because I dont get that in my life and it makes me a lot worse. I cant cope
  6. Thanks for your reply PolarBear. I do struggle with ERP particularly if im not sure if my fears are rational or not. Is it even possible that urine got on the car? Im sorry if I sound crazy. I know reassurance is not meant to be the way but i really need a logical answer to this.
  7. Im sorry youre going through this. My showers take long and I have a way too. It was really bad initially but has somewhat gotten better. I tend to wear flip flops into the shower and then walk out with them too so my feet dont touch the floor. I also cleanse myself with soaps/shampoos twice and then with the shower head wash down the shower (just with water) to 'clean' it. Then I soap/shampoo again and then get out. I also use mini towels instead of one big one because I need a clean one each time. Things is i find this bearable now and not exhausting like before. Im not telling you this to make things worse for you but that you are not alone and im sorry you are struggling. May be you can start to cut down what you are doing in small steps so may be not use as many wipes as you are doing no w. Chances are you are most likely clean already from the shower and dont even need to carry out further cleansing.
  8. My contamination OCD makes it so hard to go outside my house. I end up bringing contamination back inside and I hate going out. Over the holiday, I went out with family. We were on the motorway, in the middle lane and I noticed a car had parked up on the hard shoulder and saw someone was on the grass (they were up a grassy slope) and their back against the road. Instantly I thought they are weeing there and we have drove past and its contaminated my car. I have been vigilant about not touching my side of the car (which is contaminated) but hubby fuelled up and he touched this side of the car so now the contamination is spreading. I dont know what to do. I have been cleaning like crazy but he wore the same top today and im petrified of him and this contamination. I cant talk to him about this and really hope someone can help. Im going crazy and tired of cleaning. I cant keep up.
  9. Ive just had another OCD contamination panic. This time there was a plastic toy which came out of a party bag. It was a plastic horn and the plastic was kinda bubbling and peeling yet still stuck on. In my head it was sperm. There were two and I compared and the other one was fine so this one must have sperm on it and its dried and gotten stuck to it. I touched it to see if it would come off and a bit flaked off onto the floor. I threw it away in the bin and got my robot vacuum out to clean up the bit that must have gone on the floor but the battery was dead. Had to get the big hoover out and go over the area. I sat and thought, now ive contaminated the robot vacuum and the switch is at the bottom. Im going to have to clean it somehow, but how?? Ive thrown the horn away but the bag it came in is right here. My child has also been touching everything after taking this thing out the bag. Then as I sat I felt so drained and wanted to get away from it all. I actually fell asleep for an hour and woke up with my right hand still clenched as I needed to wash this due to the contamination. Im tired. Thanks for listening.
  10. Im at such a loss and in fear in my own home. I have contamination OCD usually related to urine but a fear of sperm has also started to creep in. Some months back my toddler was climbing up a sofa in a clothes store. We were in the mens department and the sofa was black leather with a white stain on the front. As she climbed up she she touched this stain with her clothes. This was some months back and when we got home she was climbing her swinging seat in the living room. I have a fear that the sperm spread to her swing seat and i avoid it. She plays on it and I accept her and wont distance myself from her. However, today on her clothes, I felt something coarse. It was clear like glue but dry. I removed my hand and washed my hand. However, the hubby had his feet up on the sofa where daughter had sat and I just think he is now spreading this contamination in the entire house floor. What shall I do? Is it even possible??? Im going crazy and tired and struggling to move.
  11. Hi annie an daisy. Sorry I have not been able to respond sooner as my laptop has gone for repairs and im having to use my phone which is tricky. Then I couldn't recall my password to access this account! ! Annie I hope you find something that helps you. I started off seeing a therapist but all I did was chat to him about my struggles and didnt do any exposure really. He felt we weren't getting anywhere in terms of cbt so told me about group cbt which was going to start. Theres few others with contamination ocd so thought it would be good for me to join as im so isolated with this condition and have no one to chat with. The idea is it might help if I see others going through same thing as me and us doing expie together. Daisy thanks for asking how im doing. ..I have still avoided that 'part' of the living room where id threw the toy spider and really will only feel comfortable once ive cleaned the carpet. I cant do that yet as daughter is at home on holidays so have avoided the area altogether. Ive also gotten rid of the toy and will get a replacement. ..cant even think of the ordeal of washing it. Tk cr guys xx
  12. Hi I have contamination ocd. Its chopped and changed but it has got worse not better. Im now mum and try to keep my issues to myself but as my child grows I find Im not sure of how I should be behaving in certain issues. I put my first post today and I don't know how to react to a situation where I know that something was dirty and not exaggerated this time. Im not sure what to suggest but this thinking is ocd and the lines do get blurry because of the thinking part.
  13. Ditto...it does affect you physically too esp if its been a long term issue
  14. Thanks for your response Daisy. I appreciate hearing from you. If anything, I can speaky thoughts here and hopefully meet others going through same or similar as myself. I really don't know what to do today because I feel like the contamination is spreading and the monsters getting bigger.
  15. Hi all Ive had ocd for 10 yrs. Im 35. My ocd has evolved but its all related to contamination. Its got a lot worse gradually and i shall be having group cbt soon. Problem is I am very isolated as cant speak to anyone about this. The people in my life disregard this and my husband just gets annoyed so I have lived with coping mechanisms and hiding my issues. I do torment myself mentally and feel Itake myself away from my beautiful 4yr old daughter. Im finding myself scared to leave the house and have lost many social contacts. Going out im always on edge but even when I don't, things get contaminated in the house from things outside. My daughter is growing and I dont want to transfer this to her but I don't know what is normal or not any more. Today she went out with her dad to the shops and they went for a walk while out. She carried with her a big toy spider and when they got home, she left it on the dining table. We were going to eat so I threw the toy spider on to the living room carpet. Later when she picked it up I saw its feet were mucky. I tried to ignore this and asked if the toy had been dropped but it hadnt which made me very anxious. I keep thinking it was dragged against dirt urinated walls. She had taken it to her bedroom amd I picked it up and could see stuff like dirt and tiny hairs stuck to it with the muck. This was a clean toy before. Ive bagged it up and hid it for the bin till I get a new one now. I cleaned her carpet as husband and daughter were downstairs. Im avoiding the spot where I left the toy in the living room but everyone else has walked over it and I think I did too when I had to get to the kitchen. I dont know how normal people would react but im in turmoil in my own head. Thanks for reading.
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