Thank you both means alot
Emsie - yes you are 100% right, I googled it and then had a massive panic ? Yes that's very true about OCD! I also still struggle with self compassion and I think having a big wobble recently the internal diaglog of hopelessness and depression is harder to deal with which makes challenging OCD a bit more exhausting.
Thank you that's good advise and very helpful thank you for your compassion and hope your mental health journey is going well x
Paradoxer - thank You! I am a bit of a bird nerd ? Yes that is very accurate advise, I've been through it many times before. There's a good OCD book "when in doubt make hope" as essentially OCD works on the worse case scenario and sometimes you just need to have a bit of trust that life isn't just a giant **** sandwich! Thank you for your time x