My OCD: I get irritated when I hear someone ask another to repeat themselves because that person could not hear the other. Questions like “What?” “Huh?” “Hmm?” “Pardon?” and so on trigger my OCD and make me feel depressed and angry. The reason why these incidences of “miscommunication” bother me, or at least the reason I tell myself, is because these incidences are so ubiquitous. Several times a day I will hear someone ask another to repeat themselves, and it angers me every time. Why do we live in a world where we struggle to understand each other? Usually, I will get angry at the person who could not hear what the other said. I will have thoughts like, “That person’s a ******* moron!” and, “They deserve to be tortured!” I wish this didn’t bother me. I call this OCD because OCD most resembles my condition.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to stop getting angry every time someone can’t hear.
I perceive these incidents of miscommunication as polluting to a conversation. If I notice that someone couldn’t hear what another had said, I view them (or my obsessive mind views them) as impure and contaminated.
I’m twenty years old. I’ve been dealing with this for five-and-a-half years. I will admit that I have not done much to cure myself. I tried OCD medication, Luvox, but it doesn’t work for me. I am considering meditation as another treatment. I don't want to get angry at people for such a stupid reason, but I can't help it. Please help.