Hi snowbear, thanks for your kind answer I'm aware that my post wasn't very specific, I was hoping that someone could relate to it and maybe give me some external opinion.
The sarcasm you mentioned was actually frustration !
You are right, I actually exposed 2 'symptoms' in 1, the Web-surfing and the Music-related 'Intrusive Thoughts'.
I will try to explain better :
1) Yes, I check the internet for 'methods to write music'. If I stop and think about it, this makes no sense, since I already have the tools to write music in my head (I have studied music for 15 years). So, I have tried to 'rationalize' the creative process so that I can control inspiration at my pleasure and, especially, to craft the PERFECT COMPOSITION. The result is that I
procrastinate the ACT OF WRITING MUSIC, so I will not take risks for it. Bear in mind that I have no problems taking chances
in others area of my life ! When I was a teenager (I'm 30 now) I had a narcissistic music teacher that wanted me to be 'the best' and he probably made a mess.
2) I check the mail because I'm looking for a better job than my actual one (which I despise), and there is a small percentage of possibility that I get a job offer on the email. It happened ONCE.
What am I asking for ? well, I just want some external feedback on my 'case' .
What worked for me until now ? The best thing I did for myself, was MOVING THE PC out of my bedroom.
This way, when I'm there I'm not constantly tempted to check the internet .