Hi everyone, I hope you are well.
I have OCD and have been having therapy for the last year and a half which has been a huge help, but seem to have relapsed after a night having a few drinks.
It was a nice evening until my friend had too much and he got asked to leave the pub. I apologised to everyone in there, and then tried to walk him home. He ended up falling asleep on a wall, and would not move. I was already annoyed about his behaviour, and just kept trying to get him to stand up and walk home. I ended up getting quite upset on the phone to my wife as I had no way to get him home, and couldn't just leave him there. She suggested an ambulance, so I called them and they came out. They were really lovely, and I was extremely apologetic about the situation and they ended up taking him to hospital. Since then I have been ruminating about the evening, and whether there are bits I can't remember, false memories etc, to the point where it's all I am thinking about. I am a very cautious drinker, usually having only a couple because of my OCD, and have worked really hard to get here, and now I feel like the cycle is starting again. I have started taking mirtazapine again in the hope that it will help, as well as looking over my OCD relapse plan that I worked on with my therapist.
Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to see if anyone could relate. Thank you.