Before starting I just wanna state that I've never written on a forum before (maybe because I'm scared I don't know). I have a bunch of weird feelings feeling that feels like a mixture of mild OCD, anxiety and just a whole lot of bad stuff. I'm 14 years old, going to start high school in just a few weeks and just want to be ready for it. Sometimes I just feel really down and don't know what to do. In my summer vacation now, I mainly just stay at home and play video games. When I sleep I have this urge to just keep looking over to my right side kinda like a ritual or the feeling just won't get out of my head (I think this started years ago at my old room, where there were kinda creepy toys at my side and I kept looking over at it). Before bedtime, I also often start obsessively searching the Internet about a bunch of random stuff - whether it is the definition of a word or just how old some random celebrity is. I also have quite a fear of horror movie characters and even though I have avoided the movies, I keep having this urge to just search them up in Google and just scare the **** out of myself. Even though I've liked girls my entire life, I just can't help but have weird gay thoughts sometimes. I also have a weird obsession to rub or touch corners that comes up sometimes. I mainly just try to distract myself from all these things but I really don't have a lot to do these days. I usually forget all these things when I'm hanging out with friends but I don't really have a lot of trustworthy ones that I feel I could talk to. I also have a slightly strained relationship with my parents - my father is a businessman and even though we live under the same roof I only see him once every few weeks, and my mum just wouldn't understand how I feel so I am very lost. I feel like no one likes me and that no one ever will. I know some of the things I described probably aren't even related to OCD but I'm just looking for advice here, any thoughts?