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vivi_x

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    germs and ruminations

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  1. I fear we have got off topic, and that I haven’t quite explained myself right, so excuse me being crude. its not that my ocd prevents me from explaining, it’s that I am generally quite shy and talking about vaginas and bodily secretions in detail is not something I am quick to do unles I really trust the person I am doing cbt at the moment so I’m not sure the specific psychoanalysts are quite relevant vi
  2. Mine is also bodily fluid contamination themed and that makes things surrounding sex really difficult and I just don’t know if I’ll be able to break a lot of the cycles if it isn’t included, but it’s also such a personal thing it’s scary to say I wish I could do this but my ocd won’t let me when it’s about that subject. That is to say it’s uncomfortable to talk about sex problems to someone you barely know, especially when they’re so strange and specific. I haven’t told her I’m finding it difficult, just because I’m scared, I think writing it down might help but I’m not sure where to start I guess vi
  3. So I’m working through therapy but I’m wondering how I’m meant to talk about the really embarrassing stuff, the stuff that I’m too awkward to say out loud. Any advice would be appreciated vi
  4. Im finally getting a bit better, though it’s still not gone, I was put on antibiotics for 7 days and was told it was a really bad virus I ended up at a&e and my gp after calling 111 im struggling that if I was more careful and had listened to the ocd this wouldn’t have happened, I would have been safe, and I wouldn’t have had to miss 2 weeks of uni, meaning it’s all my fault that I’m behind and if anyone else gets it that’s my fault too im still not quite better, and the last month has be the hardest I’ve had in a really long time and it’s really hard to cope vi
  5. Hi guys, i have contamination ocd and at the moment I’m really ill with ye flu, I’m talking migraine that hurts my teeth, vomiting every day and a fever, so far has been going on a week and shows no sign of slowing down. Its hard when your fears come true and now I’m finding it really hard to manage my compulsions, as well as the fact that my brain is saying I told you so you’d get sick I guess I’m just wondering if anyone has any advice, but I’d like to say I’m kinda fragile at the moment vi
  6. Hi all, hope you’re having a good Christmas, The holidays are inflating my ocd and anxiety and depression and I’m really struggling to separate ocd worries from regular ones, particularly ones about me being pregnant. I’ve had this intrusion before but it hasn’t been this bad in years to the point where I am fully convinced I am, and have been checking my stomach and trying to work out the percentage chance with the birth control I’m on, which is made worse because I’m very bloated and there is a chance. i don’t know how to deal with this and would welcome any advice vi
  7. My uni isn’t very good at giving extensions and the lecturers are pretty unhelpful in troubling situations, my house mate grandfather died and our lecturer told her she wouldn’t get mitigating circumstances even though she had to look after her mentally ill father and that if she did get it it would be a real inconvenience to him. I have recently started cbt but there’s a long way to go and I’m finding it extremely hard. Some of my friends and family know but I don’t want to be a burden and I’m already letting them down by getting bad grades so it’s reallg hard. I feel like there’s no one I can turn to and nothing I can do to escape which is really scary I’m sorry, I’m not being very productive and I appreciate the replies I just am not very good at this
  8. Ocd makes uni really hard. I’ve got a deadline soon and I’m sitting here crying and paralysed with fear that nothing I do will me good enough which means I can’t do anything which means I’m wasting time which means I’m definitely gonna fail and I’m really struggling and I don’t know how to cope
  9. In the show the good place there is a character called Chidi. He has very strong anxiety and I began to notice the cycles and trying to 'solve away the things causing his anxiety, along with avoiding doing these things. it made me wonder as at first glance it doesn't really appear as ocd but it has a lot of the same components and I suppose I was just wondering if anyone else who had watched it thought he had ocd or an ocd like disorder?
  10. I’m sorry, this approach won’t work. I know this for a fact because I’ve tried it, and and soon washing your hands 3 times becomes 6 becomes 9 becomes doing it until your hands are raw because for those of us with contamination ocd, no level of cleanliness will ever satisfy the anxiety, and soon this method becomes washing yourself in boiling water multiple times a day. I appreciate that you don’t feel that you do this too much, and that’s your choice, but coming to this forum and spreading ill advised advice to sick people isn’t fair. There is a way of dealing with ocd that works. CBT. it’s not speculation it’s fact. Aggressively messaging people on the forum that have been here much longer than you doesn’t seem the way to join a new community. As for people describing themselves as sufferers, I think it’s unwise to throw this in peoples faces, as some believe it’s not something you ever completely beat, but you continue to fight off. Please feel free to reply in a calm manner if there is anything I have said that you would like me to clarify.
  11. I am having the worst day I’ve had in a long time and I honestly thought I was better than this. I thought I was getting better, but I’ve just sat for most of the night crying and the intrusive thoughts won’t stop and I just want it all to go away and I’m not really sure what my point is other than I don’t want to be alone because this makes me really scared. It’s like I can’t breathe because of all the thoughts and I really just don’t know what to do anymore
  12. Does anyone know how to go about getting an official diagnosis, it’s always brought up by people ‘oh do you have a diagnosis’ but I wouldn’t even know where to start and what professional to talk to, all I’ve had is a gp think that it’s the case probably silly question but oh well vi
  13. Hi everyone, thanks for your replies I just hope no young person sees this video and thinks they should be grateful for the torment they have been burdened with I think all of these are so well put and maybe it is the way she feels but to be given such a large platform that spreads this much information and for it not to be checked just makes me reconsider ted talks really
  14. Here’s a link to the talk if you’re interested
  15. So I just watched a ted talk where the speaker describes ocd as ‘obsessive compulsive advantage’ and talks about how it makes her life better and quite honestly the talk made me uncomfortable. There were some good points about the disorder being trivialised and misunderstood at the beginning which I agreed with but the way she spoke about it like we should be grateful for what ocd does to us boggled my mind. Anyone have any thought on this ? Vi
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