I thought I'd give you an outline of the issues I've tried to combat for at least 5 years now. Generally my OCD is a lot better, I'm checking things like the front door, kitchen etc maybe three times but it's fairly managable.
The issue is around sleep. Not getting to sleep or back to sleep but how my mind/anger/anxiety seems to affect how I feel after sleep regardless if it's 5/8/10 hours sleep. This seems to be especially surrounding weekends or times when I want to enjoy myself. Though I seem to have little trouble getting a calm sleep before actual big events like speaking infront of large groups, the day before I proposed to my girlfriend infront of an audience, meeting government on a project, being on TV etc (only local).
- If I check things 3 times with OCD, my anxiety handles it, but as soon as it hits a fourth I start panicing, telling myself my next day is ruined or something along those lines
- Same happens if I'm awoken by anything exterior like the neighbours, but for some reason have no problem with having to get up to the loo or Diana my partner waking me up.
When these one of these 2 things happen like for at least 5 years, I wake up heavy eyed, which doesn't pass, dizzy and hazy head, sick, hating daylight, water, no energy, almost chemical like, falling asleep at random times and don't want to socialise which has made holidays and social time quite unenjoyable.
I came off all medication over the summer to see if this was the issue.
Doctors aren't sure what it is. And these disturbances only seem to affect me on days I deem important for my social life.
