Hey!
No motivation:
I have struggled alot with getting motivation.
It is abit the opposite for me. Because I have it really hard for doing the dish, washing clotchs and cleaning. When I'm thinking to start with something I mentioned. It feels like "nah, I have more improtant stuff to do" or "there's important and interessting stuff on pc/phone that I gotta check rahter". Or just some mega nope! And I don't do it. I'm so annyoed by this damn issue. I wanna live normal and to take care of my stuff. Maybe it is not OCD related? But from what I have heard it does seems pretty rare. I have seen some on Reddit and I have also heard someone said it to me that have been reading psycology. Whatever the reason is, it does not feel on a noramal way. I know others can have problems by doing that.
But I can have the no motivation even during good/positive stuff. Also for writing this post I had motivation problem. Even if I can be really ****** with my OCD and I don't want anything else than getting it fixed.
Now to the biggest problem: I get unmotivation about going to bed and it really sucks, because then I sleep too little. It is like the same problem. Like I have more important stuff to do or check the phone/pc or I just think "I gott go to bed" and my brain just "ok" and then it is gone from my head.
I also do have problem with getting up from bed in the morining aswell. Because as a result as I got to bed abit late, because of what I described above and I'm thinking "nah, it fine" (even though it is not mostly) or something like "No, I need more sleep/rest".
Saying stuff again:
I can also have some problems with that I can't drop the subject sometimes. Espically if I made something wrong or if there's a misunderstanding. I'm over analyzing the problem and I feel the need to continue talk about the subject even if the person gets it to fully. But if they say "I get it" then I think about but you do not know why I did that thing too and why I.... Example.
Overthinking & anixity:
(Under updateing progress)
Random words and annoying stuff:
I can also get random stuff poping up in my head. That can be really really annoying.
Brutal stuff (sometimes) and I will feel really bad of it (it does help about with thinking it is OCD)But then it is more like, I shoulden't be thinking this at all and the person would not be happy if they would know.
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Some other words (general speak), I'm not having huge problems or they dont occour always. But annoying enough.
I'm eating medecine (Sertralin) one and a half and my weight is like 70 kg. I started using it at like age 15. I was not aware of that I had OCD back then. I got the medecine because I had too much anaxity. I guess most of the anaxity problems was from the OCD. I still can have some anaxity and also I have depression but it is better time to time. It is abit annoying because it feels like the anxity is falut for the OCD and then it feels like nah, I have anxity because of the OCD. So it gets into a circle. If I was really knowing the problem then it would have been much easier to know what to work with and not so easy to know where to get help from. I really hope somone can help me with this pain, it have ruined some for me.
Sorry for my English, my native aren't English. Since I'm Swedish. I hope I'm allowed to write here even though? Mate
Thanks!!
