I get anxious about coming into contact with germs and wash my hands too much. I use lots of disinfectent and antibacterial wipes on things that I think have been contaminated with germs. Shoes aren't allowed to be worn in the house, and must only be put on the plastic mat in the hall which mustn't be walked on without shoes, and which I avoid touching.
I'm not worried about getting sick, it's just that germs from things that are dirty make me anxious.
I'm not sure if it's in spite of this or because of it, but I find it almost impossible to keep my house clean or tidy.I hate the state of my house and think that I am very lazy to have let it get so out of hand. I feel overwhelmed and unable to tackle it. I procrastinate a lot and I'm very disorganised. I find quite small cleaning tasks take me a long time to complete, I use too much of cleaning product, find it difficult to know if things are really clean in terms of germs, get anxious about touching things that are dirty and have to keep washing my hands. Getting anything much done is very slow and I think I started avoiding and putting off doing things to the point that it all became too much.
We never have anyone round and I hate the way our house is.
Can anyone relate to this?
