Unfortunately I see my family as dirty people when they’re not.
This has lead me to not using the shower as I now see the shower as something “dirty” ive stopped washing my clothes at home because I see the washing machine as something dirty. I don’t cook in the kitchen anymore as I see it as something dirty.
This has lead me to become dirty myself. I haven’t showered in 3 months. I eat take aways and I haven’t washed my bedsheets in 6 months. My room smells, I smell, I’m gaining so much weight it’s crazy.
The only thing that will stop this getting worse is my own place. But even working full time I can’t afford that. I hate how bad I’ve let my life get.
Why is my mind thinking not showering for months is cleaner than having a shower?
Has anyone else ended up like this?