Hey everyone,
Been struggling pretty bad lately hence resorting to this site, I've had issues with obsessing as long as I can remember easily over 20 years, it's always taken hours out of my day but it's gotten to the point it's taking days out of my weeks. I just wanted to say a few things and see if there are any people out there that experience the same stuff as I have because I've talked to a few people with OCD but it's always the hand washing or touching stuff a number of times which I have never had a problem with.
Basically I've always sort given myself situated to cope but taken it to the next level, I typically worry about more doing things in a certian way, for example (and this is a bit complex) It takes a few minutes for services to stop on windows when you close cettian applications, so in order to combat this I typically have to wait at least 10 mins to ensure they stop, but that it really matters if it does not stop I mean they would just start back up again or continue running but what would bug me is the odd number that they would a totally start,
In addition to this I can only do things at certian times on the hour, because I dont like the number 13 I'm convinced that it is bad luck or maybe something more superstitious, so I tend to stop myself doing or starting things on the 13th minute of every hour, and also every number on the clock cannot add up to 13 either, for example 4:54AM would add up to 13 so that is a no go, though this has made me better at quick math (big shaq joke). The fact that so many can add up to 13 along with the fact I only get one attempt every hour and cannot be interrupted in what I do can easily take up many hours of the day.
This isnt constant I dont have to do everything like this otherwise I woukdnt be able to get anything done it's mainly things that are uncommon and important to me.
But yeah sorry to write a book but was hoping there might be some people out there that have experienced something like this or something similar, I have put in place many rules to live by and simplified my life as much as possible to avoid problems but at the moment it is just got a bit much and would like some advice as to how you lot deal with it
Thank you for your time