Jan111

Love this!! I’m with you on that

Hey! I have recently just had therapy with an American company. It was great but so expensive. They had Zoom support groups weekly & they were great!! People just got together to share things about OCD and then people would talk about how they are feeling (no reassurance tho) Does anyone know of any like this in the UK? OR would anyone be interested in support groups where we can all meet and friendly chat over zoom?

@Lottie you’re right Lottie. And I am trying so hard but I am finding it so difficult to sit with the thoughts and not try to work them out or to not google for ways to make me feel like of a freak. I know this is probably why my OCD feels even worse than it did last time round cos I’m feeding into it more. I am constantly wanting to confess to people too to see if they judge me cos if I don’t confess I feel like I’m hiding things from them. I’ve just signed up to NOCD. Got my first video call tomorrow

@Lottie I feel the same. I watch podcasts all day about it. Try to find people who have been through the same real events as me. Then listen to how they deal with it or what the podcast tells me to do but I can’t actually do it because I’m fighting in my mind to get rid of these thoughts all day or fighting not confessing to people around me. I have just started my antidepressants again too. No change in me yet either. Hoping it will help me soon but I’m struggling to sit around and wait for that to happen. just gutted we are back here again

@Lottie i am the same. I’ve gotten through this once before but I can’t seem to find my way out of it this time. I am 30 years old. I have looked at some online help. There is a site called STOPOCD which is American but can be done in the UK. You get a therapist and tasks to go through. Might be worth looking into? I’m also just waiting for another to call me to see if they can help

Ahhhh @Lottie you sound the exact same as me. I am also currently off work sick. Are you still working? have you done therapy for your ocd?

@Lottiereally sorry to hear that. It’s so horrible with knowing Christmas is around the corner. I’m dreading it. i hope you manage to enjoy the Christmas period.

Hey @worrier no help to offer but just to say I really agree with you. Suppose we just have to tell our OCD ‘so what’

I don’t know how many more times I can go through this. It frightens me I’m likely to be alive for like another 40/50 years and in that time how many times am I going to feel this way! It’s so tiring

Thank you @Lottie I think the relapse is actually worse than the first time cos there’s always that worry now it will definitely come back.

Morning @Simonsky yes I’m in the UK. Awake now with terrible anxiety in my tummy etc. Will try a cold shower and to get up and do things. Didn’t fall asleep until gone 2am hoping I’d get up later this morning. I am sorry you are struggling too. Hope you feel better soon

@Handy Yeah that is crazy. Wish there was a way to stop it. I keep myself awake till so so late because I just don’t want to be closer to waking up. Even if my anxiety is bad should I force myself to get up and do things like you suggest? I am not going to drink at all until I am better. thank you for your help and reply

Thanks @McW that’s a good way to look at things. When I wake in the morning I’ll think I got through yesterday so let’s do it again I will look to order that book thank you. oh yes not hitler. To be honest to others I know they aren’t even ‘bad actions’ it is just my OCD making me feel that way. It’s just some things that make me feel like I’m a ‘freak’ ‘weirdo’ etc. I will say this now but in the morning it will hit me harder again. I just need to think about how it settles at night and doesn’t feel so large.

Thank you @McW. I find myself arguing with them on default you see. So even when I just wake up I’m like oh my god this is terrible and so on. I’m struggling to sit there with the thoughts and be like oh well. I think I’m searching for someone or something online to tell me how to do it. That’s where my issues lay too. do you have any suggestions of what I can do when I wake up in the morning tomorrow to help ease the situation? to be honest late at night like now I feel less anxious and more that I can say to the thoughts ‘this is really silly. Forgive yourself, you are making a mountain out of a mole hill’ but then I go back to square one in the morning. also thank you for replying to me I really appreciate it and I’m so sorry for hijacking someone else’s post. I did make my own the other day but I didn’t hear much back and just needed to speak to like minded people

Hey @McW sorry what I meant by my comment on isolating myself was… I was fine, no ocd, but I stayed in a room in our house for the week due to things happening at home, canceled walks, wasn’t eating good etc, then stayed in bed most of the day and that was when the OCD came back and hit me. So isolating myself in the sense of not even doing things for myself. This first happened to me during lockdown. That’s when I had my first encounter with OCD and now again after this week I’ve just mentioned. However though, that just really helped me in terms of my recovery. I’m like constantly wanting to confess and be around people but I need to learn to be alone too and not do any complusions. All I seem to be doing is searching for reassurance. From people or online reading. Are you saying then that really even alone I need to put myself through things that make my anxiety feel so big to make myself feel better? For example in the morning I’ll wake up in crippling anxious state and not want to even address the world. Even though it really fucking pains me should I be getting up and doing something? Or if I wake in the morning in this pain of anxiety and my thoughts are going mad and I’m arguing with them what shall I do? Just sit with them and try to say what to myself? I find cos it’s real event / false memory before I’ve even thought of it my mind is really arguing with it and it’s hard to sit with the thought without disagreeing or saying yup I’m a bad person. the reason I’ve started to reach out on here is to not seek reassurance from people around me and to try my best not to ‘confess’ even though my mind is telling me if I do I’ll be better