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BucksOCD

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  1. I did wonder this myself as the only place I have to charge my electric toothbrush in my flat is the bathroom, but it seems oddly dangerous to me.
  2. Hello Alinora thank you for your response. Well I have spells where my ROCD kicks in, usually when I am stressed out and then it seems to abate. Unfortunately at the moment as I say it seems to be totally on the go constantly gnawing away at me. My gf and I had actually been in a pretty good place recently, and I was happy with how things were going, how life was planning out. But now as per usual my ex has put a spanner in the works and my stress levels have gone through the roof, and in turn my ROCD has just hit with a vengeance. I just hate having to hide it, but I know my gf would take it the wrong way so I can't really talk to her about it all. I've booked to see my therapist next week as I think it is for the best, and I do find the sessions do help and bring clarity to my mind. I too struggle with visualisation to be honest. I find I fall quite deep when we do hypnosis, but when I have to sit / lay do stuff on my own, I really struggle to engage in it. I've also booked an appointment with my solicitors as I can't handle the divorce dragging on the way it is now, I just want to be free from that part of my life and move forwards.
  3. Hi all, I don't post on here that often, but I am really struggling again at the moment. I've had to have my son at my old house where he lives with his Mum as she is having surgery and she has had to stay in 3 days longer than planned due to an infection. Unfortunately the stress of it all seems to have triggered my ROCD again. I know I don't ever want to be with his Mum again, I couldn't think of anything worse to be quite honest. I also know that I am extremely happy with my current partner, but the intrusive thoughts just seem to be constant, as I say because of the stress of this whole situation. Is there any way people can recommend to deal with the thoughts? My therapist suggested I just acknowledge and dismiss the thoughts as just simply that, which sounds a lot simpler than it is to be honest. I keep saying to myself that I don't want my ex, and that I want my gf but I know that is just feeding the OCD. It's really getting me down, and my gf has even noticed I don't seem myself, I keep repeating myself, and seem stressed... She is a pretty good judge in fairness to her, not that I have ever spoken to her about my OCD in great length and certainly not ROCD. Therapist also recommended trying leaves on a stream to deal with the thoughts but I have only tried it once or twice. Really appreciate any help or information that anyone can give me. As I've said in previous posts, I really don't want to destroy the really amazing relationship I have built with my gf over this, it just seems to be every minute or every day right now these thoughts keep repeating over and over in my head, and then I react. It's actually really getting me down at the moment, I find myself waking up in the mornings really quite teary.
  4. My OCD has taken various forms over the years, but I have to say hands down when it decides it wants to be ROCD like currently it is the worst and most distressing that I have found. This morning it was trying to convince me I want to go back to my ex. I can tell you now that I would never ever go back there in a million years, it's complete garbage but still it bugs me and gnaws away at me. The woman I am seeing now is amazing, we've just spent the weekend together, and I couldn't be happier. My ROCD was trying to convince me I wasn't sure about the relationship, but now I am certain of it, it seems to have taken another approach. There has been a few days in the last week or so I have woken up in the mornings quite tearful from it to be truthful. Not as bad as it affects many others for sure, but I just want to be happy. My therapist has suggested a couple of things for me to try like unhooking, and leaves on a stream. I'll give them a go when I get a chance as I will literally do anything to try and stop the ROCD.
  5. Hi there... I have had bouts of ROCD recently, I manage to get back on track then stress like last week has set me off again. I totally understand what you mean about taking over your life, as when this kicks in I seem to spend every waking second constantly telling myself that the intrusive thoughts aren't real, and I get to the point where I end up either really angry or really down. Even though I know it is OCD it really gets to me sometimes. And as the person above said, OCD attacks those things that we treasure the most, it takes hold of our fears and drives us crazy. I love the woman I'm seeing, she is literally the most wonderful, kind, caring person I have ever met. She is absolutely stunning too to boot, and I know I am crazy about her. Yet OCD still tries to make me doubt the relationship, it still tries to make me stupid thoughts like should I go back to my ex (trust me I would never ever go back there!), Yet I know these things aren't true. I know I want a future with this woman, it's just stress on top of stress right now, triggered rather ironically by her ex being a complete dick! Keep strong!!! Remember... You know what you want! Your heart knows what you want! Unfortunately OCD also knows what you want, and it is trying to trick you into thinking otherwise.
  6. I find I get triggered by stress... And then yes the OCD keeps gnawing away at me incessantly making me more and more stressed. I fluctuate between feeling down, and then angry really.
  7. Surprise surprise I've been very stressed the last week or so due to issues with my partners ex and now it has triggered me again... I know I love her, but this OCD really bloody gets me down... My therapist tried to teach me to unhook from the thoughts before but it seems the practice is easier said than actually done, anyone got any good pointers on how to help me. It gets to a point where I worry what to say to her in case I say the wrong thing, and she picks up on my worry.
  8. I definitely agree on the stress factor. I find mine flares up a lot worse when I get stressed as mine has within the last week or so.
  9. Thank you for your post. It really is annoying isn't it? One thing I took comfort in earlier was reading something where someone said that ROCD makes you think the absolute opposite to how you feel and that is so true. Maybe I have put her on a bit of a pedestal, I just don't want to f it all up by acting off or distant as I know when I am with her I am so happy, but since she said I wasn't saying anything the other week it has really triggered me and I don't really know why... I don't need to say something all of the time I guess.
  10. I should add I am going through quite a bit of stress lately. I started seeing this girl since the breakdown of my marriage. Currently going through divorce, had to move out of my house and living with a friend over 30 miles away, which makes it really difficult to see my son, and this girl as much as I would like, and it is taking a toll on me getting to and from work everyday too. When I am at my friends I feel so down at being so far away from what I know, but especially her.
  11. Hi everyone, I'm new here. I've suffered with OCD for many years and it tends to come in different guises. Sometimes it is about my job, sometimes other things but I currently seem to be going through an ROCD phase and it is really playing on my mind. I have met literally the most amazing, loving, beautiful woman who I can be myself around. In fact when we are together I feel like I have never felt before, she gives me a confidence that I have ever known. Just being around her makes me so so happy. The trouble is I went to see her at work the other week and I was sat watching her do a few bits and she turned to me and asked are you going to say anything? You're not saying anything! Since then my ROCD has kicked in big time with intrusive thoughts and a constant worry that when I am with her what am I going to say? I know this woman is perfect for me, but I have started to worry any time I see her that it is going to be awkward. The throughs and reassurance I do to myself about how much I love her, how much I want to be with her is really starting to get on top of me, and get me down. Someone please tell me I'm not going mad, or any way that I can overcome this. I'm scared if I keep on the way I am I'm going to completely ruin what would be the most amazing relationship I have ever known. We went out last night and had a great night together, everything was amazing. Today I feel so stressed and so anxious and the thoughts keep going over and over in my head and I keep talking to myself about it and I'm being stupid. Help me please!!! Bucks.
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