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someone's been making accusations about my friend that I think are false. My friend's gone offline and left all our groups. I really want to find out whether or not they're really true and try to stop it if I can, but I'm scared. I know I don't have the experience to solve something like this but I just want to save him, and if I don't then I'll feel unbelievably guilty that I could've really messed up his life. can someone give advice? I'm terrified and I don't know what to do

So I was just watching TV and I felt a panicky lurch in my chest, like I was scared. Then later I was just sitting there, not really doing anything, and for no reason I got a really nervous feeling in my stomach, I felt like something bad was about to happen. Does anyone know why this is happening? Is it just OCD being dumb or could it be a subconscious worry? Thanks!

Hey Snow! Sorry for the late reply. So here's an update on the situation: in the end, I found out that I could choose what was gonna happen. I have the choice to either: be homeschooled by my granny to do extra work, OR stay in school as normal but have to do extra work. It might be a bit stressful doing more work, but I am so glad that things weren't as bad as I thought they'd be. I've yet to tell her but tomorrow me and my mom are gonna have a discussion on this and I'm going to tell her what I have chosen. I'm not exactly sure what's gonna happen (I might have to stay in school for a couple more hours but it probably won't be THAT long) but I'm much less upset now that I'm not as unsure about this. Thank you so much! I'm so happy!

So due to OCD and some other factors I tend to struggle a lot at school. However I've been getting better and lately I've been doing great. I'm happy to go to school, I love hanging out with my friends and I'm not stressed with the work and stuff. But now my grandma is upset with me not doing enough work apparently, and she wants to homeschool me. I'm so upset and scared. I was so happy, and now it's all gonna be ruined. Not only would it mean not being able to hang out with my friends as much, but my grandma will make me do a whole bunch of work which I'm not able to do. Also, my granny is an annoying jerk. I don't mean that to be rude, but she bullies me and gets into arguments with me and it always causes me so much stress whenever I have to be around her. For example: This is far from the worst thing that's happened, but one time I was staying in her house and watching a video and she barged into my room and demanded to know what I was watching for no reason. I told her that it was none of her business, and she got super mad and accused me of watching porn and she wouldn't leave my room. She also once called me "a spoiled b*tch" and threatened to dump me out on the road just because I was tired and didn't want to chat with her while we were in the car. Please help and give me advice on what to do. I feel so helpless. If I end up spending years stuck with her and having constant fights and drama I just won't be able to handle it and my life's just gonna suck all over again. Please help.

For the most part, it's not thoughts about raping people. It's more worries that it'll happen I have not been raped before, but sometimes when I'm going outside during the evening when it's I get super paranoid that I'll be raped or stalked by somebody. I also get a feeling of guilt over my worries, feeling like I'm insensitive to people who've actually been raped by being so paranoid when I'm not a victim. Another thing. You know how I said "for the most part it's not about raping people" earlier? I don't generally have thoughts about wanting to rape people but there was one specific time I often worry about. So I walked up to some girl, and suddenly, out of nowhere I got this strong urge to rape her (or at least hold her down and try doing inappropriate things with her, idk this was a couple months ago) and I got a groinal response too. She walked away, and I don't think I ever touched her, or tried walking after her with the intent of hurting her when she walked away, but after it happened I was really distressed wondering if I'd straight up attempted to sexually assault her and she walked away because she was trying to escape me. I still worry about this sometimes and not being able to tell whether I just got a random intrusive thought or if I've literally committed attempted sexual assault really sucks. I need help.

I'm struggling with OCD and autism a lot, and my mom wants to help me. I know she means well but her ways of trying to make me better are making me worse and she still keeps doing them even after I tell her how harmful they are for me. I can't seem to get her to just stop them. What am I supposed to do? Just wait, getting worse and worse, until she really sees how awful she's making me feel and stop? She already knows I self-harm, and I feel like absolutely nothing would be able to make her stop this. I'm so scared. I need help.

I'm an age regressor. When I regress, I go into a childlike headspace and react to things the way a kid would. (Not as a kink, if anyone's confused. It's a coping mechanism) Now what I want advice on is talking about my age regression to my mom. I'm a teenager so I'm at an age where I still live with my mother, but I'm confused about how I should come out to her about it and how she should care for me when I regress. Can I have some advice on this?

So I was worrying about my Sexual Sadism for a while. And basically I thought for a minute "Unless I'm harming someone, why should I worry if I'm getting off to some of the most horrific true crime stories ever?" and now I'm even more worried. Would someone who just had OCD really have those thoughts? Help!

So I've been worrying I have a fetish for hearing about real people being tortured and abused for a short while now. So sometimes I might be reading something and stumble upon a mention of a true story like that, then the intrusive thoughts and feelings come in. I think "Oh no! I hope I don't get aroused! I'm a monster if I get aroused by something like this!" And then instantly I get these unwanted feelings of sexual arousal, and it really does feel like I like it. I know I shouldn't be aroused, so I try thinking about the thing in a different way if that makes sense. I try replacing the unwanted feelings with more "acceptable" reactions like empathy. Only thing is the unwanted feelings of arousal and attraction become stronger, and they only go away when I stop thinking about the thing. I know that simply not thinking about it would probably be the better thing to do when this happens, but I can't stop. If I get aroused, I compulsively feel like I have to replace the unwanted arousal with empathy, even though trying to "replace" the feeling only makes it stronger. It's like a compulsion.

I know how irrational that may sound when it comes to OCD, but this has been worrying me. So basically a month ago I wanted to prank this girl in my class. I just wanted to give her a fright, nothing really harmful. I did it, and then this thought about raping her popped into my head. I think she pushed me away after a moment and I guess I just forgot about the thought, and then a couple minutes or so later I thought "Wait, what the hell was I thinking?" and worried about it for like 3 days. I only stopped worrying after I decided it must've just been an intrusive thought, but recently the worry came back. What if I really did want to do something absolutely awful to her, and only didn't because she pushed me away? I'm glad I didn't act on it, but would I have done so if she'd stood there another few moments? I know this may sound like reassurance seeking, but I need help here.

Thanks for the quick reply! I will definitely take your advice. The joke was just a sex joke that wasn't directed towards anyone, but I can definitely understand why saying it there wasn't a good decision and I took it as a learning experience.

So last night I was at a gathering and I decided to make a very vulgar joke. I was dumb and didn't think anyone would care, but then this one person who heard didn't realize I was joking and got super mad at me for "making such an inappropriate comment." A lot of people definitely heard the person and I got humiliated. Me and my friends tell each other those kinds of jokes a lot, so I was dumb and didn't think people might get weirded out or not realize I was joking, and I feel so humiliated. I feel awful.

At this point I'm honestly sure that it's not even a sexual obsession and I really do get off to true stories of torture, rape and abuse. I'm 13, and I think most people find out they have a paraphilia at that age. I'm disgusted and I wish I wasn't like this...

Thanks!

So earlier I was just sitting there, listening to music and enjoying myself and suddenly a memory popped into my head. I remember a few months ago I was reading a true crime story and it mentioned rape, and think I can remember feeling aroused. I know a lot of people get unwanted arousal reading rape stories, but I swear I remember feeling genuine arousal and enjoyment from reading about real life rape. I think I can extremely vaguely remember thinking "Wait, am I getting excited by reading about rape? That's disgusting of me!" but I'm not sure. I've been wondering if it really was just some unwanted arousal I felt back then and OCD is blowing it out of proportion to make me think I was enjoying it, but I have no idea. Is it possible I was?