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I enjoy wine and do regularly drink but when my OCD is higher I tend to avoid drinking. But socially I do enjoy the only thing with alcohol is what OCD can't remember it makes up. I used to wake up after drinking feeling like I'd killed a small village. For others they get it to but for someone with OCD it can be ten times worse xx

Thank you devalentin I appreciate you response I had this theme about 13 years ago and beat it. Then in march I was battling another form and it lifted and was replaced with this one I couldn't believe it the worst one I've had. It's been so difficult cause on a logical level I beat it before but it's frightening and stuck and I keep getting stuck on the theme of the thought the content so instead of treating it as OCD I am getting upset about the thoughts what it means about me followed by reassurance seeking and the compulsions. Little reassure needed doesn't OCD distort normal thoughts. I hate this horrible disease xx

Terry 123 Thank you for you kind response much appreciated. This community has been such a help to me and everyone is so supportive. I have been really struggling the past 6 months and have found it hard to get on track. It hasn't been solid I've had a couple of good months then I am back to over analysing whatever theme it's latched on I just wish I'd stop getting tripped up by OCD i can see what it is, but then I get caught up in the content and landslide back down the rabbit hole, doubt and get stuck. I will continue to fight it I have seen better amazing days before but it's so tough right now xx

I understand the theme doesn't matter it's OCD but when you are stuck in gear in your mind and can't sake the importance of the content it's tough. OCD will say this is really important or you shouldn't be thinking this way. It distorts normal thinking, makes you hyper focus and then the doubt kicks in. How do you stop getting fooled by the content I know it's OCD but can't stop the importance or I think I don't want to think that what does that mean about me etc etc. Then when my anxiety is down it's like these thoughts are normal OCD is playing games then bang anxiety up again. I then don't know what's normal and what's OCD my old therapist treat all thoughts surrounding you obsession as OCD. How do you stop getting caught up in content xx

So sorry to repost but really struggling finding it so hard to switch off the OCD. I know it's OCD and I tried to use CBT to restructure the thoughts as in to normalise my thinking but it made it worse give OCD more room to play. To the point I am frightened to have any thoughts around my old theme. My old therapists would have said treat it as OCD forget about the theme and don't get into it no compulsions such as reassurance seeking, no trying to fix your thinking so you feel better. See it as OCD and do not react.I feel I am down the rabbit hole and scaring myself I can be good for a few days a week then il start why am I thinking like this thoughts, is the normal is this OCD and get stuck...feelings get intense and distorted how do I stop taking my thoughts so seriously I so want to feel better soon. Been looking into a new therapist my one is lovely but doesn't really understand OCD. It's so expensive private and frightening trying to find someone who can meet me where I am at instead of me explaining to them what I need to do and then me having difficulty doing it how do I stop reacting to the thoughts.i would love to do it on my own also as I have all the tools but I am finding it difficult to do. Don't get me wrong this is panic mode now because I am sick of it but I can switch if off at work then by the time I am driving home I am over analysing problem solving.

I know what you mean Eco it's like OCD takes over and you can't concentrate on what's happening in life it feels trivial or you get a worse theme and you think I'll take the old one back it wasn't as bad as this. I think it's so important to remember the theme is unimportant it's all the same thing the doubt that comes with it gets me and distortion of normal thinking. I am working so hard the past few days to get it lifted I hope something clicks in again soon. I've done well the past few days and pray it keeps lifting. I for us all we deserve peace of mind xx

The only big change is a loved one passed away last year and my OCD has been up and jumping around from then. Because it's been hard to get back on track my mind has hit panic mode. I am trying really hard not to react to intrusive thoughts around the theme and to know I beat it before and the theme is unimportant. I have been exercising and doing yoga etc . I just wish it would fade quicker my mind is trying to analyse the intrusive thoughts but I am working really hard on ignoring it.

I am so anxious that my old theme is opening up again. It was my worst one and I am really scared I will get sick. I haven't had it in over 12 years and now I find myself questioning my thoughts and Google is my thoughts normal seeking reassurance. I can't believe this is happening to me again.

Thank you Handy going to ignore it and try to switch it off.

Hi Garfield please don't worry and I appreciate your support. I think your right about not going over old ground like your therapist said not going back. Sounds like good advice. I think what your describing is real event OCD. The labels don't matter it's all the same OCD but it latches onto things that have happened or your worried might happen and when you say delusions I think OCD does completely distorted things because we analyse the life out of non sensical things if that makes sense. It's the not reacting, the not responding that's hard because OCD is looking relief. I hope you like myself get on top of this and feel better soon.

Its a new year and I am working hard on making it a positive one mind and body. I am sorry also to send similar OCD themes on this site. I am not looking reassurance that it's OCD just looking support to beat it. I know it's ocd but it's like if I don't restructure it ...my mind won't let it go it keeps stuck. I had a theme for 3 to 4 weeks stuck and I used my techniques and got it shifted then it switched gear to a very old OCD theme I beat 10 years ago that was extremely difficult. I don't want to restructure it as I feel it's opening the door up to an and old OCD theme that I've got rid of but the urge is there to restructure or it won't move past. What id like to do is name it as OCD and not get into it this I know is the right way to deal with it. I am so stressed that my OCD has been so strong from last year on and off. I have started back to therapy privately but fear the therapist doesn't fully understand OCD I am so stressed xx

Hi Emma I have a lot of rumination trying to solve the problem. Trying to get it right in my head all of these are compulsions and the more you do the bigger the urge is to do more. I don't want to ruminate I want to let it go but OCD won't let me. What your doing is compulsions and they are so difficult the correct way to deal with it is to resist the urge and refocus break the cycle. The doubt part is tough because OCD is telling you you need to solve the problem. Solving the problem is the problem it's so hard I am struggling with this at the moment. I hope you break the cycle soon and me too.

Thanks mini I hope you are feeling better I am still struggling ATM I am stuck in compulsively trying to restructure and doubting I am doing the technique right. I know I should just stop reacting to the OCD and refocus but I am finding it so hard. It been 3 weeks now. I used to be able to call the OCD out straight away then restructure and refocus as and when needed. But at the minute I am doubting what do I say first or that the sentence isn't right. It's so difficult right now and I am trying hard. I go to the gym or walk the dogs and stop ruminating then I start to check how did I solve that before and problem solve again and the the doubt and the need to keep checking I am doing the technique right. I just want it all to stop and get back to where I was a while ago where I could get out of this mess in a week.

I am really struggling at the moment OCD has been building the past three weeks. I am struggling with compulsions and doubt. My techniques is seeing all intrusive thoughts and anxiety as part of OCD. This is what was agreed with the last therapist and to challenge the thinking as and when needed. But I am stuck every time I have a theme I challenge by saying this is OCD refocus or it's a false alarm refocus. To unstick my brain but I keep doubting what I am saying in my head. I could cry it's been a stressful few days and the when I do get out of my head I relax but then go searching for the right response.

Thank you Angst I really appreciate your response and it's a good way to look at it. I just need to work on not allowing it to turn into ocd too which happens a lot I struggle with pure O sometimes it's easier to let it go and other times it gets stuck.