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angels

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  1. I worried about this when I was pregnant I have twins who are nearly ten I was so determined to keep my OCD under control when they came and when they arrived I was so busy I was almost ocd free a few years OCD is managed with determination and solid technique my OCD is up at the moment but I wanted to reach out
  2. Going on a hen tomorrow with cousins my anxiety levels are well and truly up. I have had OCD from the last time we where out together and I had a row with one of them my hubby picked me up and I was crying as one had got agressive with. My OCD theme had changed to was I weak or strong could I protect myself if I was in a physical fight etc etc what does me being fearful mean about me.being able to feel strong enough to take care of myself is important to me as having confidence and assertive this is OCD fueled. I am so embarrassed I have talked to my mum brother dad and husband and confessed my fears seeked reassurance and it's made me feel worse. I can't seem to switch it off and I feel ashamed to have showed weakness by admitting my fears which I feel maybe OCD related. I do not want to feel fear I want to feel strong in myself no body got what I said they thought I wanted to be agressive when I said I don't want to fight with anyone but I wanted to know I'd have the strength and courage to take a stand for myself and these thought where making me feel weak I feel so anxious and embarrassed I am so tired of feeling afraid of things it switches from one fear to the next i get on top of one ..my theme of OCD is all to with am I confident I am assertive am I able to stand up for myself as all these things are important to me and then OCD gets triggered by situations like these I have doing a lot of work to make myself feel confident etc Need help here to calm myself down. I am so upset I have spoke about these things plus I've made my cousins look bad by talking about her behaviour need help go get on track.told my husband how I was feeling and he feeds it by going into safety behaviours if trouble breaks out I tell him I think my OCD is playing on this and he brings up I read your ocd diary years before I know the way your mind works. This makes me feel worse as I know there was some crazy stuff in there I got rid of it years ago I don't even dare to ask him what he read one I am angry he did it and two ocd fears are not real and he said it disgusted him. I think he feeds on my fears also because he knows I love a laugh and it's his way of making sure I behave. So sorry OCD fuelled post also I was reassurance seeking and bringing the subject up to anyone who would listen
  3. Emsie your a wee star thanks 😁
  4. Where would I find this to watch Thank you x
  5. angels

    NEED HELP ASAP.

    If your on this site chances are your here for help with ocd. Ocd in intrusive thoughts that are un invited not welcome that disturb us and make us question what sort of person we are for having them followed by reassurance seeking and terrible doubt OCD latches onto everything try see it as ocd ignore and refocus rough I know but only way to get better
  6. Emsie thank you so much for your reply your are so right when I am strict with myself the thoughts and fears fade. And Il will just have to belive it's my OCD and not me and that the doubt it part of it. I like to belive we are stronger and more capable than even we know that comforts me. Ocd is like a running commentary in your head questioning oversnalysing and doubting it has to be nipped in the butt so quick.. thank you Emsie
  7. Would really appreciate feedback does your ocd try to latch thoughts or situation and make mountains out of mole hills. This is probably reassurance seeking I'd love to see all the intrusive thoughts as ocd but the doubt stresses me out and the thinking gets stuck in a loop
  8. It seems your anxiety levels are on high alert try to breath and step back when I am anxious my OCD latches onto everything as difficult as it is see this as your ocd it's the same theme ignore the doubt and refocus.
  9. Bit of advise would be appreciated about a months ago I had a social nite with a few family members and had far too many beverages. My cousin was winding me up and after a few drinks I told her where to go she was shocked as I not normally like that with her but as she can be very needy at times she would try the patents of a saint...i think id just had enough she became aggressive with me which is probably understandable as I was cheeky first but i felt uncomfortable and went home i was too drunk anyhow. But she only remembers my part and not her own to save any hassle I apologised next day and said let's move on. But my OCD went through the roof for a few month on and off I have debated over analysised will this happen again will it get out of hand does she think she can get a way with this etc etc round and round in circles I very unable to think of anything else. I have began to over analysis myself my reactions personality etc and debate was I weak or strong could I handle myself if needed etc then the doubts I have been assertive and managed many situation I am always testing myself is this OCD I always feel the need to protect my self and OCD topic attaches to my character personality and abilities and sticks the doubt of it being a real issue keeps me stuck is this all ocd
  10. Still worrying over analysis and talking to others trying to find solutions my mind won't shift gear. Heading off on the hen soon and I've really blown this out of proportion in my head I feel maybe I should speak to my cousin about the situation to prevent it from happening again or getting out of control. I feel embarrassed going on about to others as I feel it makes me look weak. I just want to switch off and feel good about myself but I feel theirs a threat there. Should I be honest speak up or say nothing a hope for best. Having these thoughts make me feel I won't be able to be myself is this OCD blowing things outta of proportion and doubting if I can or can't handle it sorry folks
  11. angels

    Really bad setback

    OCD hops from one thing to the next once one thing is under control it trys a different Angle try to see all intrusive thoughts and doubts as ocd regardless of theme and refocus do not listen it is your ocd at play
  12. Finding other people attractive is normal but ocd see everything as a threat and makes mountains out of mole hill stop reacting and change your focus it should lift if you treat is as unimportant
  13. It's tough going at times to distract from the constant thoughts and you so desperately want to switch off. Instead of seeing as an OCD reaction I seen it as a complete threat and analysised and disected to the point of confusion i must up my game with my technique and turn it around thank you both for your response. The mind gets stuck like a hamster on a wheel and affects my memory terribly at times..
  14. Bit of advise would be appreciated about a month ago I had a social nite with a few family members and had far too many beverages. My cousin was winding me up and after a few drinks I told her where to go she was shocked as I not normally like that with her but as she can be very needy at times she would try the patents of a saint...i think id just had enough she became aggressive with me which is probably understandable as I was cheeky first but i felt uncomfortable and went home i was too drunk anyhow. But she only remembers my part and not her own to save any hassle I apologised next day and said let's move on. But my OCD went through the roof for a month on and off I have debated over analysised will this happen again will it get out of hand does she think she can get a way with this etc etc round and round in circles I very unable to think of anything else. I have began to over analysis myself my reactions personality etc and think what if i cant be myself around her does she think I am a fool etc and no matter how I try to see this as ocd and not listen to it doubt and all continues. Do I treat this as ocd we are going on a hen next month and my mind won't drop it she has moved on but my mind is stuck on negative thoughts
  15. I really belive strongly in positive affirmations change thoughts change behaviour and change feelings. Love it 😁😁😁
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