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Hi Maggers I go onto you tube and type in meditation for ocd and pick one i find them really good for relaxation and trying to keep well. If there is a day my ocd is really strong or iam over stimulated and i cant listen to someone talking me through a meditation ill listen to just sounds instead eg rain etc

Ocd related Perfectionism to me is a way of making sure we do something perfect so theres no risk of getting it wrong like a safety behaviour. For me it can be doubting i am doing the right tecnique, the right response to ocd etc and it only serves to keep the ocd going. I then get the fear of i cant move past this i dont have the perfect answer etc the only way i can move past it is by accepting i have ocd and its tricking me into thinking theres no way round it. I then put the responsibility onto ocd and do my best try my hardest to pull my power back by saying this is my ocd and then refocus until the importance of it lifts and i feel half normal again. Is ocd trying to make you doubt you choose recovery or is making you fear not being able to do a compulsion. It sounds like ocd is up to its old tricks. I hope this helps

Hi Ocd is an anxiety disorder that makes us overanalyse,disect and doubt everything including who we are as people and what we value most, your way of being, thinking and acting ,it sows seeds of doubt and goes in on what we value the most. Try to separate your intrusive thoughts from who you are as a person. Thoughts are not facts i hope this helps a little and refocus.

Thank you theres a few compulsions i need to nip in the butt. Reassurance seeking with myself and others and googling. The real event ocd is so tricky at times to shift.

I am struggling to let something someone said go. Its getting me down because it has triggered my ocd theme all around my character. ive been battling to refocus, let it go its been a few weeks now and i hate that i keep falling it ocd traps. Logically i know opions are not factual but based on perspective but i cant sake it off. Its like i will know this is my ocd then it shifts i feel a little better then i will hear his opinion like the ocd doubt. I cant wait until it shifts i am seeking reaasurance from others and googling compulsions. I need to get back to work and refocus its a difficult disorder at times i for a lift and a break.

Thank you Garfield for your response much appreciated. Your right it is not giving the power to other peoples opinions or ocd which I manage well on good weeks but once you get into it, It's just tough when you start over analysing yourself and then the doubt kicks in the anxiety and compulsions. I have been doing so many of those the past few days and its make me less sure and more anxious.

Past week has been tough my ocd has been up and I have been analysing the life out of everything. My theme for a long time now is based around my character and when someone makes a comment positive or negative it can triggers my ocd. Then I feel I have to approve or disprove incase what they have said isn't accurate. Ocd black and white thinking kicks in. Someone at work said we are too soft you need to stand up for yourself. I was triggered incase he thinks I am a pushover case I am nice I then said I can be assertive when u need to be. But now it's stuck intruding I to my mind and making me feel miserable. How do I stop being triggered by people's opions I just want to feel good about myself. I really want to switch my ocd off .

It can be very difficult when ocd becomes involved. Any situation can become a source of ocd. Especially when we are looking for certainty.What you are saying is you have a very good relationship now and have overcome alot of the hurdles together. All your feelings are valid and normal. But ocd brings alot of doubt and overanalysing makes it worse. I suppose its whether you feel there are questions that still need answered eg how did we find ourself in this possession, whos needs were unmet and how do we make sure this doesn't happen again so we can move on and let go... Or maybe this has already been discussed or work on and ocd is just latching on if that's the case is it a matter of trusting yourself and letting go.

I really wish I could switch it off hopefully it shift soon.

Thanking you for taking the time I appreciate it. I had the same theme 10 years ago and then it jumped to other themes, it goes back and forth to different themes. I know when I treat it as part of ocd and ignore the doubt I feel ocd free and great. This what I was told to do by my therapist but when it's triggered it's difficult to get it back in the box so to speak. Best of luck in your recovery.

Hi Chris Can I check how you dealt with this when you where obsessing and getting anxious about the physical symptoms did you just treat it like part and parcel of ocd. This is what I want to but the doubt is strong. Thank you and sorry in advance if this sounds like reassurance I am just struggling at the moment and want to get back on track.

Sorry text typo should not have a please in that sentence.

Ocd is an anxiety disorder and the themes of your ocd can change. Mines does and it catches me out which upsets me. Also please there's a difference between thoughts and a plan.

When your ocd is up in real life I find it enters into your dream state. I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you so much for both your replies I hate the way ocd trips me up and jumps about. Ocd is an anxiety disorder which seems ridiculous that I start to obsess about the different symptoms. The doubt is unsettle me and the but what if. I know when I treat intrusive thoughts and anxiety as part of the ocd. It lifts and I feel much better. Then of course I look reassurance eitheir google, here or with the therapist even though they have told me how to deal with it. The doubt kicks in ocd won't allow normal feelings feel normal there is always the potential of ocd. Thank you both for your support especially the link.

I have been diagnosed with ocd for a long time, it is pure o I suffer with, its a pain in the bum because it latches on to thoughts and feelings. I have had certain themes for 10 years and it jumps around. One of the themes was homing in on the physical symptoms of anxiety and then overanlsing why i feel anxious and what does this mean about me.being frightened of what if its not ocd and some other anxiety disorder. My counsellor said its all your ocd and to treat intrusive thoughts and physical symptoms as part of my ocd. When I do that I feel relived and back to normal but then the doubt kicks in. what if it isn't ocd and another disorder and this worries me because I know how to deal with ocd. Even when I have normal feeling they can turn ocd. I try to Label it so I can nip it in the bud. I had a little physical anxiety last week and have been stuck ever since. I am working on accepting it as part of my ocd and refocusing. Then I did a compulsion this evening and googled can ocd be anxiety feeling intruding as well as thoughts. I wasn't getting the reassurance I needed and my anxiety is up. Going to do a meditation and try to relax. I suppose I am seeking reassurance that thoughts, feeling anxious without thoughts, images what's ifs are all part of ocd and should be treated that way and to ignore the doubt. Thank you

Hi Angst thank you for your reply much appreciated,alot of counsellors have been through their own stuff and are extremely understanding thats what brought me into training wanting to help. It's just my Ocd playing up it was a normal conversation and a normal response from her. I not afraid of people knowing I've had my own struggles I just don't want to be defined by it. You know that war cry it's not me it's my ocd that keeps me working my recovery. I manage to stay well and stable but my ocd does get triggered off at times and overanalysis or makes mountains out of molehills. I have a supervisor and a counsellor I see when I need to. It just makes me feel vulnerable sometimes. I am thankful for this site it has helped me loads over the years.

I have pure o so alot of my ocd themes surround this type of obsessing, doubting ruminating. But if I call it out this is my ocd I don't have to prove or disprove someone's opinion but if I have something to say like you said earlier once twice tops and refocus.. thank you for your kind words xx

Thank you for your reply much appreciated and your right its natural and human responses, my ocd just loves looking for something to latch onto it just ruminate's and overanalyses on good days I can nip it in the bud other times it sneaks in.

Ocd is playing up during conversations at the moment in work. Have they understood me correctly,did I explain that properly. Did I say something wrong or did they pick me up wrong. This is Particularly strong around topics around people understanding my character accurately (ocd theme). It's happening around a new person in work who has just started who is very complimentary and lovely. The person is also a counsellor like myself so is in tune with my behaviours which is triggering me slightly. She has picked up on me worrying about things and said stop worrying about that. I don't want to be defined by my ocd traits they are unaware that I have ocd and it's subtle my responses. I want to correct the narrative or over explain or reassure seek these are all ocd. I really want to work on these this year. But I really don't wants others picking up on these things but they do sometimes andthis bothers me. Do I continue treating as ocd Don't try to prove or disprove opinions. During conversation resist the urge to over share or over explain. No reassurance seeking and the big one stop letting others responses true or not trigger me. As for people picking up on my ocd quirks I just play them down and put it down to being a counsellor and having awareness of myself. I really don't like people picking up on my compulsions makes me feel vulnerable. I know I am only human xxxx

Thank your polarbear I know your right I need to treat it as ocd irrelevant and let it go. It just makes me feel really uncomfortable being picked up wrong and I feel its difficult to refocus until I correct it. Again I can see this is ocd. It's such a ridiculous disorder at times.

Everybody has thoughts or thinks deeply on certain things. The difference is they can let it go and move on, were as someone with ocd overanalysis, or attach meaning eg someone might get an intrusive thought eg I could run into the middle of that road. The person without ocd might think gosh that's a silly thought and let it go. The ocd brain goes into overdrive why did I think that? what does that mean about me ?. Then the disordered thinking kicks in ruminating, reassurance seeking etc the solution to the problem becomes the problem. The looking for answers to questions that don't have answers. Feeling anxious because you can't find the right answer, is ocd at its finest. That's disordered thinking . I hope this helps maybe someone else might have another take on it that's just how it goes for me.

It's been a week of on and off obsessing, feeling stuck thoughts and doubts. I am trying to say this is my ocd and refocus. Then I tell myself if the person has picked me up wrong I can clarify what I mean at a later date. But because its the 2nd time she has picked me up wrong I feel if I say any more I will look neurotic. My ocd is keeping me stuck when I really want to let it go and feel as good as I did a week ago. I know if it wasn't this it would be something else. Ocd is a real ass I just hope something clicks soon.

The feeling stuck, overanalysing, ruminating and going down the rabbit hole with you thinking is all ocd compulsions and it's difficult when you are a deep thinker. I think when your get stuck at that point and feel anxious and can't switch the gear these are all signs ocd is playing up.

Ecomum, thank you for your response I really appreciate it and can so relate to the feeling of not wanting to be piegon holed. I am many things, I know its my ocd having a field day here overanalysing, disecting and I will just ignore it and do my best to refocus. These little things do trigger my ocd and I then get the urge to correct the narrative or over explain so people don't get it wrong it's totally ocd at play thank you.