Snowdog

I just don’t know we’re im going wrong 

I do everything I should be doing my anxity still there my thoughts are still there  all day long everyday my anxity still bad I’m always in a bad mood Becuase of them and so irritated all the time like so irritated ..it just won’t let up at all.. I just looked in the mirror and I just look so I’ll and drained from it all I just don’t know what I’m doing wrong  my head going to explode... 

I’m on week 5 of 20mg escitlopram in the morning and nothing changed..

i must be doing something wrong but what ☹️ I’m jus not getting better 

14 hours ago, gingerbreadgirl said:

Mine would be - go towards your fears, not away from them.

I would say the Same has gingerbread girl x

6 hours ago, felix4 said:

Hi,

My suggestion is to give it a try stepping away from the whole theme of OCD, post CBT/ERP.

I truly believe that getting too immersed in everything OCD after CBT could be counterproductive and prolonging the agony, as you may subconsciously be keeping the OCD wheels in motion, and it an obsession in itself!

I just think it may in some cases be holding certain people back, particularly those that are long term sufferers who have had multiple sets of CBT.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Good point..

hey how are you felix was shock to see your name come up haven’t seen you on here for a while.. I’m still on here trying to get help and not cause no trouble  I’ve changed my name on here so prob won’t be to sure who I am now 

heidi x 

7 hours ago, Bodger said:

Well done!!! Enjoy your time with him now, you have done amazing today!!!

Thanks bodger and thanks for your help today 

Yeah done so good so proud of myself 

7 hours ago, gingerbreadgirl said:

You should be really proud snowdog! 

Snowdog - 1, OCD - nil

Hope you enjoy the rest of your day with your nephew

Thanks for your help today 

yes snowdog 1 ocd nil 

yeah been good since thanks 

2 hours ago, gingerbreadgirl said:

It's so tough  OCD is horrid.  But you can do this - you're stronger than OCD! And the prize at the end will be worth it  xx

It is so tough it’s so horrible esp when it’s towards people u love ? yeah defo worth it in the end ?

11 minutes ago, Bodger said:

Sit with the thoughts. The anxiety will rise but eventually ease off. Hopefully by the time you read this things will of improved. Make sure you congratulate yourself afterwards!! Well done for facing your fears hopefully you will get some enjoyment from your nephew.

Thanks for your reply bodger 

yeah your right things have Improved I’m sitting here with my arm around him which I find hard to do .. everything has ease of still there but not has bad when I first posted for support then tonight I can write in my book what I achieve today x 

2 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said:

I think you should just sit with the thoughts, allow that discomfort to be there, even deliberately ramp it up by bringing on more thoughts.  Be careful not to do any compulsions, including sneaky ones of ruminating/analysing.  Eventually the anxiety will start to come down x

Thanks for your reply gingerbreadgirl ok I try that thanks I sit here invite them and I won’t do no complusions.

wow this is hard 

x

Hi there has you know I suffer from harm intrusive thoughts..

well today is the first time I’m baby sitting my nephew at my house he is 4 years old so this is big thing for me.. so I’m here sitting with him while he watching cartoons and it’s brought on all my intrusive thoughts what if I harm him here etc u know them thoughts.. my anxiety is tho the roof and I can’t relax scared out my mind.. so what am I poss to do just sit here and invite them in I don’t want to distract myself Becuase I know that don’t get rid of them this is so uncomfortable.. all these feelings are terrible.. the imanges are even worse 

please don’t tell me I won’t do it cuz your feed it more I just need to know what I should do Becuase this is going to far now I need to get a grip of this so I can relax in my life 

any advice would be good right now x

8 minutes ago, PolarBear said:

I'm on both escitalopram and Respiradone. I wouldn't worry too much about the latter. It will either work or it won't and it only takes about 7 to 10 days to see a difference, if there is one.

Ok thanks for your reply I see how I get on 

12 minutes ago, PolarBear said:

I would think it's likely due to the increased dose. If you did well on 10mg then you'll likely be okay on 20mg but you've just got to get past this side effect. Usually it goes away shortly but if you haven't seen an improvement in a week or so then it's definitely time to talk to your doctor. 

Thanks for your reply pb.. yeah i got up today and thought I do a week more and see how I feel if no improvement I know there putting me on Risperidone which I’m scared of so I wait for my appointment 

8 minutes ago, PolarBear said:

They are just not trained a lot on mental health issues. It's a problem that needs to be addressed.

Thanks for your reply pb 

yeah it does Becuase they just look at me like I’m mad and think I want to act on these thoughts 

Why does gp not know about my Ocd they never heard of such thoughts in Ocd ??

snow x

9 hours ago, Isthisreality said:

Do you know what i think? I think it's your OCD. OCD have an ability to make me angry and irritable like crazy. 

And you are doing compulsion when you analyze the situation. 

 

However, i am sorry for you feeling irritation because i know that feeling. It's not fun.

7 hours ago, Bodger said:

It could be the dosage increase, your doing right by checking with your doctor.

I am on 20mg escitalopram, I didn't have any side effects after week 2. Remember we are all different when it comes to meds. I personally only find escitalopram helps very slightly for depression and not for my OCD.

Thanks for your reply’s I really appreciate it 

yeah I will give the doctor a call today thanks x

Hi I just moved up to 20 mg of escitlopram from 10mg and I’ve just done three weeks the first two weeks I was so calm normal no thoughts no nothing and the last two days has in day 20 and 21 I’m totally crazy I’m telling you..  I have extreme irritation and anger and it’s scaring me Becuase the nature of my thoughts I feel like I’m losing the plot here and it’s trying to twist my mind telling me I don’t like my daughter and I keep shouting at her Becuase everything is irritating me and I never do that it’s must be the increase am I right ? Someone else must have felt like this I feel like I’m only one who’s got this right now ..I’m sat here in tears ? is this normal I just don’t know I’m going to call my doctor tommrow I’m so so scared ? 

32 minutes ago, lostinme said:

Hi snow so sorry to hear you’ve been unwell and had to have surgery, but it’s nice to know your on the mend now  I agree with gbg  I once had these thoughts too, but I nipped them in the bud immediately and they havnt bothered me since Don’t engage in them, treat them as any other theme of OCD, you can do this snow ❄️ don’t buy into it 

Best wishes as always, lost xx

Thanks lost for your message ..You had them horrible thoughts to ? it’s so awfull lost it’s making me so crazy 

hope your ok x

32 minutes ago, Isthisreality said:

So this is how it is: no medication will ever take away the thoughts. You need to attack te thoughts.

Thanks for your reply 

I’m not on meds for Ocd I’m on meds for anxiety and depression I am.. yeah I’m doing that at the moment and my harm thoughts have gone down by half..just wanted to know if these are new Ocd thoghts 

21 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said:

There's a phrase "if it feels like it might be OCD, then it is" - treat this like any other OCD theme.  Don't engage.

Sorry to hear you're unwell but glad to hear you're on the mend xx

Thanks gingerbreadgirl 

just wanted to know if it’s tryign to attack me in another way Becuase these are new thoughts ? 

Hi there 

hope you all well  

Sorry haven’t been on for a while I’ve been really not well in hospital and had to have surgery etc but on the mend now..

my Ocd has been so bad they put my escitlopram up to highest dose now and I’m on week 3 every thing been better hardly had no Ocd etc apart from today omg I have new thoughts and I’m trying to work out if there Ocd thoughts or I’m getting really mentally unwell or it’s from upping my pills I’m literally so scared ?well here goes I’m actually so sick to say my new thoughts but I’ve never had them before and you know my thoughts there all harm one or some sexual but I’m having intrusuve thought  today I don’t like my daughter I’ve never had them before ? and it’s scaring the hell out of me has anyone had these thoughts ? Is it Ocd trying to trick me with something new.. 

snowdog x

15 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said:

I've felt like this before.  I remember I used to think "how can I plan anything for the future because I could be in prison by then"... (don't ask!)

A good exposure would be to really plan something for the future and carry on with it even when that feeling pops up, with an attitude of "I don't care OCD, I'm going to plan anyway". If that makes sense! x

I had this to I couldn’t plan nothing because I thought I be in prison by then to even mow I think I can’t leave that there in case I’m in prison but breaking that slowly x

On 05/02/2018 at 12:51, PhilM said:

I thought "I've worked hard" and this benefit has nothing to do with whether you work on not. The form is BS though - hardly any questions about mental health BUT a lot of questions clearly designed to catch people out. Got nothing to lose by applying for it though as OCD sufferers in my view.

Hi Phil 

how are you ? Sorry haven’t spoken to you in a while my ocd has been bad and haven’t been on much.. are u of the benzo yet ? Just to let you know I’m on the higher rate of this for the care part.... I just said how it is on a bad day with my intrusive thoughts how long it takes me to do things what I’m scared of doing etc then I was called to see someone they said I couldn’t have it then I disagreed with there answer so I had a phone call interview and told her everything and she awarded me the higher rate so no you got nothing To loose.. 

x

5 minutes ago, DeathSlave said:

God forbid no, I said it worsens symptoms of existing aspects, but if you don't have for instance anger issues most likely nothing will happen regarding this aspect. You're a calm person with no anger issues, generally say, I didn't say you could actually go and hurt somebody, even I haven't done such things despite my anger issues.

Ok thank you for explaining better..I hope you don’t think I was being rude I was just putting my opinion across.. 

40 minutes ago, Rox said:

Snowdog, thank you for your kind words and support. 

That’s ok no problem Rox I’m here if you need to talk to me.. x

Just now, DeathSlave said:

Yes I see people get offended, but I don't understand why the need to focus on the bad side of it.

Yes, people here don't want to look like they need a shrink, but my point isn't completely out of nowhere, again, people keep forgetting OCD is registered as a mental disorder in the DSM for a reason.

I assume the most annoying was to sugget people with OCD could be dangerous, but they just twist my arguments to get offended and i'm not here to offend or troll and I've stated that OCD could amplify negative aspects, what's so offensive here ? You can't say NOBODY with ocd ever got worse because of OCD, it's a blatant lie.

People like me get offended by that and focus on that becuase we have Ocd that’s what happends in Ocd and also I have intrusive thoughts of killing people so now I take it I’m a danger to people and my child becuase you have said that 

5 minutes ago, DeathSlave said:

Welp you shouldn't speak for everyone, I have OCD and i'm not dangerous right now, but at certain points in my life I have been a bit unhinged, trying to portray OCD as just a cute little problem is both extremelly offensive for people who suffer from it and just plain wrong, OCD is recorded both in the DSM and ICO for a reason.

Again, speak for yourself, maybe statistically OCD people are not violent, but there are exceptions, and just like I said OCD is an amplifying machine, and mostly for the bad part, sadly I don't know many people that their OCD amplified the best aspects of them.

So everyone I know on here that has intrusive harm thoughts like me some could be  dangerous? I can’t speak for everyone yes that is very true but we talking about Ocd.. I just want to say You got to be careful because this could really trigger someone to have a Ocd melt down that have intrusives harm thoughts becuase I have battle them kind thoughts for years now and if I didn’t have the cbt that I’ve have latley that would of sent me of the rails with my Ocd thoughts becuase I know finally that’s not true so Im gonna leave this here but I found your post very unhelpful to people here that have intrusive thoughts of harm and who have Ocd 

Thank you gingerbread girl 

1 minute ago, DeathSlave said:

People are different, but I have ASD not just OCD, but to say OCD people are not dangerous is also wrong, as I said the whole idea of ocd is amplifying and repeating, so a person with anger issues would become a lot angrier, which is my case, but a big detail is the ASD that changes the picture and you're forgetting that. 

Yes people are different some people have got anger problems etc but I’m talking about Ocd like people that got the kind of ocd I got so I have to disagree with that... I don’t think that and a lot of People on here I know will tell you different to becuase we are the most kindest people going.. obv depends of what other people have got in with it but Im talking about people with Ocd has this is a Ocd site..and if your saying the opposite then I don’t agree and I know many of my cbt theprist and pdoc have said the same to.. it’s not good you saying that becuase people with harm intrusive thoughts would take that the wrong way they would think that there harm thoughts are dangerous now.. like I did when I read that.. but becuase I have cbt I can look at that different now and tell myslef it won’t lead me to dangerous places.. 

maybe read the post wrong becuase I know sometimes I do especially when my ocd serve at the moment.. but I wanted to ask you what you meant by that.. thank you for telling me your storie and your point of view 

i don’t know anything about asd so I can’t say anything about that to be honest..

3 minutes ago, DeathSlave said:

It does depend on the person but OCD is indeed a mental disorder. Despite the possibility the sufferer is not in a severe state of OCD sometimes OCD could indeed make you collapse.

For example, bringing myself as an example there were many times in my life that I had actual seizure-like OCD attacks, so if for example something would bring me down or annoy me there were times that I'd just collapse at the moment, because I would then recall every other issue that occured for instance in the past days or weeks or even more.

For example, I have a dog and on time he urinated on the floor and when I got home I then felt stressed, but all of the sudden I then remembered somebody insulted me back earlier and that I have a task to do, then every issue or problem I've had during the week just started poping up in my mind, a million times each thought, like a computer that is being blown out of memory, and I actually wanted to rip my skin off and I felt like a thousand demons just started to yell in my head, and I got so angry I wanted to destory everything in front of me, and well my dog was there, I was actually dangerous to people and even my dogs, so before I got completey maniac I put him somewhere safe and then went to sleep and cried out of madness and not out of sadness.

People are different but this is an example that mental state could bring you to a dark place.

And this was a pretty recent event, during previous years I was way worse and had to take a little heavy dosage of pills, and if I had no shrink or something things could have gone way way worse.

Ok I get what your saying about what happened to you ... but Ocd people are not dangerous they are least dangerous people and they would never act on there thoughts so I have intrusive of killing people and intrusive thoughts of harming myslef so are you saying if I didn’t have help I could be a danger to myslef and others ? Becuase I disagree if your saying that..